1 00:00:02,900 --> 00:00:05,567 I CAN FEEL MY BODY IS ALMOST DONE. 2 00:00:05,567 --> 00:00:08,600 IF I DON'T DO SOMETHING, I'LL DIE. 3 00:00:15,467 --> 00:00:17,233 Man: NOT FOR ONE MINUTE THAT I THOUGHT MY LIFE 4 00:00:17,233 --> 00:00:18,900 WOULD END UP LIKE THIS. 5 00:00:18,900 --> 00:00:20,667 OW! MY LEGS! 6 00:00:20,667 --> 00:00:22,900 Ashley: I'M SO FAR GONE. 7 00:00:22,900 --> 00:00:26,467 Woman I ABSOLUTELY NEED HELP, 8 00:00:26,467 --> 00:00:30,067 OR I AM GONNA DIE. 9 00:00:33,067 --> 00:00:35,600 -I CAN'T DO THIS. -I'M RIGHT UNDER YOU. 10 00:00:35,600 --> 00:00:39,400 -[ Crying ] I NEED OVER! -YOU'RE FINE. YOU'RE FINE. 11 00:00:43,600 --> 00:00:45,633 Woman I FEEL LIKE I LET MY KIDS DOWN. 12 00:00:45,633 --> 00:00:47,433 INSTEAD OF ME TAKING CARE OF THEM, 13 00:00:47,433 --> 00:00:49,233 THEY'VE BEEN TAKING CARE OF ME. 14 00:00:49,233 --> 00:00:52,733 IT'S YOU -- YOU ARE THE ONE KILLING HIM. 15 00:00:55,733 --> 00:00:57,867 YOU'RE NOT GONNA BE APPROVED FOR SURGERY. 16 00:00:57,867 --> 00:00:59,333 Cynthia: THAT PISSES ME OFF. 17 00:00:59,333 --> 00:01:01,733 WE DON'T HAVE TO DO THIS [BLEEP] NO MORE! 18 00:01:01,733 --> 00:01:03,800 -YES, WE DO! -NO, THE [BLEEP] WE DON'T! 19 00:01:03,800 --> 00:01:06,800 -- Captions by VITAC -- www.vitac.com 20 00:01:06,800 --> 00:01:09,833 CAPTIONS PAID FOR BY DISCOVERY COMMUNICATIONS 21 00:01:13,633 --> 00:01:15,467 Cynthia: LIFE HAS A WAY OF TAKING YOU 22 00:01:15,467 --> 00:01:19,433 TO A LOW PLACE YOU NEVER THOUGHT YOU WOULD BE. 23 00:01:19,433 --> 00:01:21,800 BUT YOU HAVE TO FIND THE MOTIVATION 24 00:01:21,800 --> 00:01:24,067 NOT TO GIVE UP AND STAY THERE. 25 00:01:59,667 --> 00:02:01,900 WHEN I WAKE UP IN THE MORNING, 26 00:02:01,900 --> 00:02:04,733 I START HURTING 'CAUSE THE PAIN IS INTENSE. 27 00:02:08,633 --> 00:02:11,567 MY ANKLES ARE SWOLLEN ALL THE TIME. 28 00:02:11,567 --> 00:02:16,067 MY KNEES ARE CONSTANTLY IN PAIN. 29 00:02:16,067 --> 00:02:21,367 MY BODY IS PRETTY STIFF 'CAUSE I HAVEN'T MOVED ALL NIGHT. 30 00:02:21,367 --> 00:02:25,067 SO IT'S HARD FOR ME TO WALK. 31 00:02:25,067 --> 00:02:28,700 AND I HAVE TO TAKE A LOT OF BREAKS. 32 00:02:33,800 --> 00:02:36,467 I TRY NOT TO DO A WHOLE LOT OF MOVING AROUND 33 00:02:36,467 --> 00:02:39,500 BECAUSE SOMETIMES WHEN I DO TOO MUCH WALKING, 34 00:02:39,500 --> 00:02:42,400 I BREAK OUT IN HIVES ON MY LEGS. 35 00:02:42,400 --> 00:02:44,867 I HATE IT. 36 00:02:44,867 --> 00:02:48,600 I'M JUST COMPLETELY TRAPPED IN THIS BODY. 37 00:02:48,600 --> 00:02:50,833 BUT BEING MY SIZE, 38 00:02:50,833 --> 00:02:53,967 I REALLY HAVE TO TRY TO STAY AS CLEAN AS POSSIBLE 39 00:02:53,967 --> 00:02:56,600 BECAUSE OF ALL THE FOLDS IN MY SKIN. 40 00:03:03,300 --> 00:03:06,333 BATHING MYSELF IS ONE OF THE HARDEST THINGS I DO. 41 00:03:10,167 --> 00:03:12,067 IT HURTS. 42 00:03:14,267 --> 00:03:19,500 AND IT'S HARD TO REACH AROUND MY BODY. 43 00:03:19,500 --> 00:03:22,367 BUT IF I DON'T, I COULD GET TERRIBLE RASHES 44 00:03:22,367 --> 00:03:24,733 THAT COULD TURN INTO OPEN SORES. 45 00:03:32,633 --> 00:03:38,400 EVERY DAY, I'M JUST PRAYING THAT THIS BODY DOESN'T GIVE OUT. 46 00:03:38,400 --> 00:03:42,500 BUT THERE'S ALREADY SO MUCH I CAN'T DO ON MY OWN, 47 00:03:42,500 --> 00:03:47,767 AND MY WEIGHT HAS BECOME A BURDEN TO MY FAMILY. 48 00:03:47,767 --> 00:03:50,300 KIAH! 49 00:03:53,067 --> 00:03:55,067 CAN YOU COME DO MY LEGS? 50 00:03:58,467 --> 00:04:01,600 ONCE I GET OUT THE SHOWER, MY DAUGHTER COMES IN, 51 00:04:01,600 --> 00:04:04,667 AND SHE'LL CLEAN OUT THE BACK OF MY LEGS 52 00:04:04,667 --> 00:04:07,800 BECAUSE MY ARMS ARE TOO SHORT TO REACH. 53 00:04:10,067 --> 00:04:11,967 Ukiah: WELL, SHE TRIES TO DO EVERYTHING. 54 00:04:11,967 --> 00:04:13,233 SHE TRIES NOT TO BE LAZY. 55 00:04:13,233 --> 00:04:15,300 SHE TRIES TO DO A LOT. 56 00:04:15,300 --> 00:04:17,900 BUT SHE CAN'T. 57 00:04:17,900 --> 00:04:20,300 Cynthia: UKIAH DOES A LOT. 58 00:04:20,300 --> 00:04:22,700 SHE IS A 40-YEAR-OLD WOMAN 59 00:04:22,700 --> 00:04:25,133 IN AN 11-YEAR-OLD'S BODY. 60 00:04:25,133 --> 00:04:28,867 AND IT IS EMBARRASSING FOR HER TO SEE ME LIKE THIS. 61 00:04:31,300 --> 00:04:33,067 SHE SHOULDN'T HAVE TO DO IT, 62 00:04:33,067 --> 00:04:35,767 AND I FEEL HORRIBLE THAT I HAVE TO ASK HER 63 00:04:35,767 --> 00:04:38,133 TO DO SOMETHING THAT I SHOULD BE ABLE TO DO MYSELF. 64 00:04:38,133 --> 00:04:40,567 OKAY. I'M FINISHED. 65 00:04:50,233 --> 00:04:53,667 I'VE ALWAYS TAKEN CARE OF MY CHILDREN. 66 00:04:53,667 --> 00:04:56,933 BUT I DON'T KNOW HOW IT GOT TO THIS POINT, 67 00:04:56,933 --> 00:04:59,133 WHERE THEY'RE HAVING TO TAKE CARE OF ME. 68 00:05:03,400 --> 00:05:05,867 I'VE STRUGGLED WITH MY WEIGHT ALL MY LIFE. 69 00:05:09,867 --> 00:05:12,067 I NOTICED AROUND SECOND, THIRD GRADE 70 00:05:12,067 --> 00:05:14,967 I WAS BIGGER THAN THE OTHER KIDS. 71 00:05:16,867 --> 00:05:20,067 AND I WAS PROBABLY IN, LIKE, A WOMEN'S 20 72 00:05:20,067 --> 00:05:24,333 BY THE TIME I WAS IN FOURTH AND FIFTH GRADE. 73 00:05:24,333 --> 00:05:28,333 BUT MY FAMILY NEVER MADE A BIG DEAL ABOUT MY SIZE. 74 00:05:28,333 --> 00:05:30,300 SIZE WAS SOMETHING THAT WAS SEEN 75 00:05:30,300 --> 00:05:34,767 AS, YOU KNOW, KIND OF A BIRTHRIGHT IN OUR FAMILY. 76 00:05:34,767 --> 00:05:36,067 WE LOVED TO EAT. 77 00:05:36,067 --> 00:05:37,433 IT WAS KIND OF A RUNNING JOKE 78 00:05:37,433 --> 00:05:41,333 THAT IF YOU WERE BIG, YOU WERE A WELLS. 79 00:05:41,333 --> 00:05:44,867 Cynthia: I WAS GAINING WEIGHT FROM A YOUNG AGE, 80 00:05:44,867 --> 00:05:46,900 AND BY THE TIME I WAS IN MIDDLE SCHOOL, 81 00:05:46,900 --> 00:05:49,633 I WAS ALREADY 250 POUNDS. 82 00:05:53,333 --> 00:05:57,900 THE KIDS IN SCHOOL WOULD TEASE ME BECAUSE OF MY SIZE. 83 00:05:57,900 --> 00:06:01,433 AND SOME OF MY EARLIEST MEMORIES WERE FEELING SO ALONE. 84 00:06:04,500 --> 00:06:08,433 I REMEMBER DIETING ALL THROUGH MIDDLE SCHOOL AND HIGH SCHOOL. 85 00:06:08,433 --> 00:06:09,633 I WANTED TO LOSE WEIGHT 86 00:06:09,633 --> 00:06:13,100 'CAUSE I WANTED TO LOOK LIKE EVERYBODY ELSE. 87 00:06:13,100 --> 00:06:15,200 BUT I NEVER LOST MUCH WEIGHT, 88 00:06:15,200 --> 00:06:18,467 AND I KEPT FEELING LIKE I WASN'T LIKE EVERYONE ELSE. 89 00:06:21,267 --> 00:06:25,200 THEN I STARTED HAVING SEIZURES. 90 00:06:25,200 --> 00:06:26,967 EVERY TIME I HAD A SEIZURE, 91 00:06:26,967 --> 00:06:32,933 IT WAS WHILE I WAS WATCHING TV OR A MOVIE. 92 00:06:32,933 --> 00:06:34,900 AND IT MADE ME FEEL EVEN MORE ALONE 93 00:06:34,900 --> 00:06:37,633 BECAUSE SO MUCH WAS WRONG WITH ME. 94 00:06:39,367 --> 00:06:41,667 I SAW THE RELATIONSHIP BETWEEN MY MOM AND DAD 95 00:06:41,667 --> 00:06:44,167 AND HOW MUCH MY DAD LOVED MY MOM, 96 00:06:44,167 --> 00:06:45,467 AND I REMEMBER THINKING 97 00:06:45,467 --> 00:06:48,700 I'M NEVER GONNA HAVE SOMEONE LOVE ME LIKE THAT. 98 00:06:50,333 --> 00:06:52,967 AND THAT FEELING OF LONELINESS AND REJECTION 99 00:06:52,967 --> 00:06:56,700 JUST GOT WORSE OVER TIME. 100 00:06:56,700 --> 00:06:58,200 IN HIGH SCHOOL, VALENTINE'S DAY 101 00:06:58,200 --> 00:07:00,200 WAS THE WORST DAY OF THE YEAR FOR ME. 102 00:07:00,200 --> 00:07:02,233 I FELT ALONE AND UGLY. 103 00:07:02,233 --> 00:07:06,067 WHY DOES NOBODY LIKE ME? 104 00:07:06,067 --> 00:07:08,900 ONE VALENTINE'S DAY, IT GOT REALLY DARK. 105 00:07:08,900 --> 00:07:11,567 AND THE ONLY WAY I KNEW TO END IT 106 00:07:11,567 --> 00:07:14,267 WAS TO TAKE A BUNCH OF PILLS. 107 00:07:14,267 --> 00:07:17,067 MY GOAL WAS TO KILL MYSELF. 108 00:07:17,067 --> 00:07:21,267 BUT I JUST GOT REALLY SICK, AND THANKFULLY, I SURVIVED. 109 00:07:23,600 --> 00:07:26,533 I WAS SO DEPRESSED. 110 00:07:26,533 --> 00:07:29,633 FOOD WAS THE ONLY THING THAT MADE ME FEEL BETTER. 111 00:07:29,633 --> 00:07:32,433 WHEN I ATE, I WASN'T ALONE. 112 00:07:36,667 --> 00:07:42,433 THEN MY WEIGHT JUST STARTED TO SPIRAL AT THAT POINT. 113 00:07:42,433 --> 00:07:46,267 OVER THE NEXT 10 YEARS, I SLOWLY GAINED WEIGHT. 114 00:07:46,267 --> 00:07:50,900 BUT I WAS STILL ACTIVE IN TAKING CARE OF MYSELF. 115 00:07:50,900 --> 00:07:54,133 AND THEN EVERYTHING CHANGED. 116 00:07:54,133 --> 00:07:56,500 AT 28, THERE WAS A SITUATION THAT OCCURRED 117 00:07:56,500 --> 00:08:01,767 THAT I NEEDED TO TAKE CUSTODY OF THREE OF MY COUSIN'S KIDS. 118 00:08:01,767 --> 00:08:05,500 THEIR DAD HAD BEEN ABUSING THEM, 119 00:08:05,500 --> 00:08:08,733 AND MY COUSIN COULD NO LONGER TAKE CARE OF THEM. 120 00:08:08,733 --> 00:08:14,267 I WENT FROM ZERO KIDS TO THREE KIDS OVERNIGHT. 121 00:08:14,267 --> 00:08:17,900 HAD A 4-MONTH-OLD WITH BROKEN RIBS, 122 00:08:17,900 --> 00:08:21,533 A KID IN A FULL-BODY CAST. 123 00:08:21,533 --> 00:08:23,600 I NEEDED TO PROTECT THEM, 124 00:08:23,600 --> 00:08:27,067 AND THAT WAS JUST MY M.O. AT THAT POINT. 125 00:08:27,067 --> 00:08:28,433 I WAS AT THE POINT IN MY LIFE 126 00:08:28,433 --> 00:08:32,467 WHERE I FELT NO ONE WAS EVER GONNA LOVE ME. 127 00:08:32,467 --> 00:08:36,600 I WAS IN MY LATE 20's TAKING CARE OF CHILDREN -- 128 00:08:36,600 --> 00:08:41,633 CHILDREN WHO HAD SPENT THEIR LIFE BEING ABUSED BY A MAN. 129 00:08:41,633 --> 00:08:47,100 SO I DECIDED I COULDN'T BRING ANOTHER MAN INTO THEIR LIVES. 130 00:08:47,100 --> 00:08:50,833 I JUST HAD TO FOCUS ON THEM. 131 00:08:50,833 --> 00:08:54,533 AND EVEN THOUGH I GAVE UP ON FINDING LOVE, 132 00:08:54,533 --> 00:08:58,800 I DIDN'T WANT TO GIVE UP ON HAVING CHILDREN OF MY OWN. 133 00:08:58,800 --> 00:09:03,333 SO I DATED AND GOT PREGNANT WITH MY TWO YOUNGEST CHILDREN. 134 00:09:03,333 --> 00:09:07,300 BEING A MOTHER WAS SOMETHING THAT I ALWAYS WANTED. 135 00:09:07,300 --> 00:09:11,600 AND THE SITUATION JUST GAVE ME MORE DESIRE 136 00:09:11,600 --> 00:09:14,133 TO HAVE A CHILD OF MY OWN. 137 00:09:14,133 --> 00:09:16,333 SO AFTER I HAD JORDAN, 138 00:09:16,333 --> 00:09:19,967 I GOT PREGNANT TWO YEARS LATER WITH SHAQUILLE. 139 00:09:19,967 --> 00:09:23,633 I WAS TOO BIG TO WEIGH ON THE OFFICE SCALE, 140 00:09:23,633 --> 00:09:27,233 SO I HAD TO GO TO THE FREIGHT SCALE. 141 00:09:27,233 --> 00:09:31,433 AT THAT TIME, I WAS ABOUT 480, 142 00:09:31,433 --> 00:09:34,333 AND I SPENT ALL MY TIME 143 00:09:34,333 --> 00:09:36,133 FOCUSED ON TAKING CARE 144 00:09:36,133 --> 00:09:40,100 OF EVERYBODY ELSE INSTEAD OF MYSELF. 145 00:09:40,100 --> 00:09:43,067 I THINK WE WERE JUST TRYING TO SURVIVE. 146 00:09:43,067 --> 00:09:46,067 EATING RIGHT WASN'T EVEN AN OPTION. 147 00:09:46,067 --> 00:09:48,733 IT WAS JUST DO WHAT YOU CAN TO GET BY. 148 00:09:48,733 --> 00:09:51,300 SO I JUST KEPT GAINING WEIGHT. 149 00:09:54,367 --> 00:09:58,367 NOW I'M A SINGLE MOTHER OF FIVE CHILDREN, 150 00:09:58,367 --> 00:10:00,833 AND I DON'T KNOW WHAT I WEIGH. 151 00:10:00,833 --> 00:10:03,333 MY OLDEST IS PLANNING ON MOVING OUT SOON, 152 00:10:03,333 --> 00:10:07,333 BUT MY LIFE IS STILL DEDICATED TO RAISING MY OTHER CHILDREN. 153 00:10:07,333 --> 00:10:08,567 AND I'M GETTING TO A POINT 154 00:10:08,567 --> 00:10:11,367 WHERE I CAN'T PHYSICALLY DO THAT ANYMORE. 155 00:10:11,367 --> 00:10:13,933 IT SCARES ME. 156 00:10:13,933 --> 00:10:16,167 JEFFREY IS 16. 157 00:10:16,167 --> 00:10:18,033 ROBERT IS 13. 158 00:10:18,033 --> 00:10:19,933 UKIAH'S 11. 159 00:10:19,933 --> 00:10:21,067 JORDAN IS 10. 160 00:10:21,067 --> 00:10:24,600 AND SHAQUILLE IS 7. 161 00:10:29,033 --> 00:10:30,200 GOOD MORNING. 162 00:10:30,200 --> 00:10:32,800 GOOD MORNING, MOM. 163 00:10:32,800 --> 00:10:35,400 MY FAMILY IS MY LIFE. 164 00:10:35,400 --> 00:10:39,400 AND MY BIGGEST THING RIGHT NOW IS JUST BEING A BETTER MOTHER. 165 00:10:41,900 --> 00:10:46,200 ROBERT, JEFFERY, JORDAN, SHAQUILLE. 166 00:10:46,200 --> 00:10:47,733 YOU NEED TO WASH YOUR HANDS. 167 00:10:47,733 --> 00:10:51,300 BUT MY WEIGHT LIMITS ME SO MUCH, 168 00:10:51,300 --> 00:10:53,733 SO I WANT TO LOSE THE WEIGHT. 169 00:10:53,733 --> 00:10:58,067 BUT WHEN THE CRAVINGS COME, ALL I WANT TO DO IS EAT. 170 00:10:58,067 --> 00:11:01,567 AND WHEN I GIVE IN, I GET EVEN MORE DEPRESSED. 171 00:11:06,567 --> 00:11:10,067 SO I JUST GO BACK TO BED FOR A WHILE. 172 00:11:16,667 --> 00:11:20,767 I WANT TO BE THERE FOR MY KIDS, 173 00:11:20,767 --> 00:11:25,167 BUT I JUST CAN'T BE THE MOM THAT I WANT TO RIGHT NOW. 174 00:11:25,167 --> 00:11:27,167 -MAMA. -WHAT'S UP? 175 00:11:33,900 --> 00:11:35,700 I GUESS. 176 00:11:38,467 --> 00:11:41,767 GET UP, GET UP. 177 00:11:41,767 --> 00:11:46,933 Cynthia: MY SIZE IS KEEPING ME FROM BEING ACTIVE WITH MY KIDS. 178 00:11:46,933 --> 00:11:52,233 I THINK THEY HAVE A DESIRE TO BE MORE ACTIVE WITH ME. 179 00:11:54,067 --> 00:11:55,733 AND THEY JUST DON'T SAY IT 180 00:11:55,733 --> 00:11:58,767 BECAUSE THEY THINK IT'LL HURT MY FEELINGS. 181 00:12:02,433 --> 00:12:05,500 I FEEL SO GUILTY, SO I PUSH MYSELF. 182 00:12:12,233 --> 00:12:15,233 NO MATTER HOW MUCH I WANT TO TRY, 183 00:12:15,233 --> 00:12:17,633 I JUST CAN'T DO MUCH. 184 00:12:19,167 --> 00:12:21,833 SO I HAVE TO WATCH FROM THE PARKING LOT. 185 00:12:24,700 --> 00:12:26,833 I CAN SEE THE BENCHES AND THE PLAYGROUND AREA, 186 00:12:26,833 --> 00:12:29,433 BUT THEY'RE TOO FAR FOR ME TO GET TO, 187 00:12:29,433 --> 00:12:34,167 AND THERE'S NOTHING BETWEEN FOR ME TO STOP AND REST. 188 00:12:34,167 --> 00:12:36,233 ON A SCALE TO 1 TO 10, 189 00:12:36,233 --> 00:12:40,333 HOW MUCH I WOULD LIKE MY MOM TO BE OUT HERE IS 100. 190 00:12:40,333 --> 00:12:41,833 IT MAKES ME KIND OF SAD 191 00:12:41,833 --> 00:12:43,867 SEEING MY MOM STANDING BY THE CAR 192 00:12:43,867 --> 00:12:46,467 AND SHE DOESN'T GET TO PLAY WITH US. 193 00:12:48,700 --> 00:12:50,533 Cynthia: THESE ARE, LIKE, THE BEST YEARS OF THEIR LIVES 194 00:12:50,533 --> 00:12:52,067 THAT I'M MISSING OUT ON. 195 00:12:52,067 --> 00:12:53,200 MAMA! 196 00:12:56,100 --> 00:12:58,500 'CAUSE YOU ONLY GET THIS TIME ONCE. 197 00:13:00,367 --> 00:13:03,433 WATCH ME! 198 00:13:03,433 --> 00:13:07,067 I STILL HAVE TIME TO ENJOY THESE YEARS 199 00:13:07,067 --> 00:13:09,600 IF I CAN TAKE THE RIGHT STEPS. 200 00:13:12,833 --> 00:13:17,667 BUT IF I DON'T, THEN THESE YEARS WILL BE LOST. 201 00:13:17,667 --> 00:13:19,067 I HAVE A FEAR THAT EVENTUALLY 202 00:13:19,067 --> 00:13:21,400 I WON'T BE ABLE TO WALK OR MOVE AROUND 203 00:13:21,400 --> 00:13:24,067 IF I KEEP GAINING WEIGHT. 204 00:13:24,067 --> 00:13:26,367 AND I KNOW THAT NOT BEING THERE FOR THEM 205 00:13:26,367 --> 00:13:29,767 IS GONNA BE ONE OF THE BIGGEST REGRETS OF MY LIFE. 206 00:13:42,933 --> 00:13:45,200 OKAY, COME ON. 207 00:13:45,200 --> 00:13:48,967 AS DIFFICULT AS IT IS TO GET OUT OF THE HOUSE, 208 00:13:48,967 --> 00:13:52,267 I STILL HAVE TO BE A MOTHER. 209 00:13:52,267 --> 00:13:56,333 I'M THE SOLE PROVIDER FOR MY KIDS. 210 00:13:56,333 --> 00:14:00,933 BUT AT MY WEIGHT, JUST GETTING THROUGH EACH DAY IS A STRUGGLE. 211 00:14:03,167 --> 00:14:05,800 AND BEFORE I EVEN GET TO WORK, 212 00:14:05,800 --> 00:14:09,333 THE STRESS OF THE DAY IS ALREADY ON ME. 213 00:14:09,333 --> 00:14:11,700 SO EVEN THOUGH I'VE HAD BREAKFAST, 214 00:14:11,700 --> 00:14:13,767 I STOP TO GET A SNACK. 215 00:14:13,767 --> 00:14:17,800 I NEED THREE LARGE JALAPEÑO KOLACHES, 216 00:14:17,800 --> 00:14:19,333 TWO GLAZED TWISTS, 217 00:14:19,333 --> 00:14:21,300 A DOUGHNUT HOLE, A SMALL ORANGE JUICE, 218 00:14:21,300 --> 00:14:23,833 AND A LARGE ORANGE JUICE. 219 00:14:26,933 --> 00:14:30,333 I AM A SPECIAL-EDUCATION TEACHER. 220 00:14:30,333 --> 00:14:33,900 AND BEING A TEACHER REQUIRES BEING ON YOUR FEET ALL DAY. 221 00:14:33,900 --> 00:14:35,367 COME ON. 222 00:14:35,367 --> 00:14:37,067 BUT WHEN I GET TO WORK, 223 00:14:37,067 --> 00:14:38,500 I CAN'T EVEN MAKE IT IN THE BUILDING 224 00:14:38,500 --> 00:14:42,400 AND TO MY CLASSROOM WITHOUT STOPPING. 225 00:14:42,400 --> 00:14:45,567 SO I KIND OF MAP MY ROUTE 226 00:14:45,567 --> 00:14:50,067 TO WHERE I KNOW THERE ARE CHAIRS THAT I CAN SIT IN. 227 00:14:50,067 --> 00:14:54,133 SO I'LL SIT AND CATCH MY BREATH, 228 00:14:54,133 --> 00:14:56,467 AND THEN I GET UP AND KEEP MOVING. 229 00:14:56,467 --> 00:15:00,067 [ BREATHING HEAVILY ] 230 00:15:00,067 --> 00:15:01,633 BY THE TIME I GET TO MY ROOM, 231 00:15:01,633 --> 00:15:04,600 I'M SO PHYSICALLY WIPED OUT, 232 00:15:04,600 --> 00:15:08,333 AND I'M STARVING. 233 00:15:08,333 --> 00:15:11,233 BUT I'M CONSTANTLY AROUND FOOD. 234 00:15:14,067 --> 00:15:18,433 I HAVE THE SNACKS I BROUGHT, AND THERE'S ALWAYS MORE AROUND. 235 00:15:18,433 --> 00:15:23,533 AND IF I RUN OUT, IT'S USUALLY AROUND LUNCHTIME. 236 00:15:23,533 --> 00:15:25,233 I DO LOOK AT THE FOOD IN FRONT OF ME 237 00:15:25,233 --> 00:15:27,333 AND SAY, "I DON'T NEED IT." 238 00:15:27,333 --> 00:15:31,200 BUT IT'S GOOD, SO I JUST WANT TO KEEP EATING. 239 00:15:33,300 --> 00:15:34,667 EVEN WHEN I'M FULL, 240 00:15:34,667 --> 00:15:37,533 IF IT'S SOMETHING THAT I REALLY ENJOYED EATING, 241 00:15:37,533 --> 00:15:42,200 I WILL EAT UNTIL IT'S GONE. 242 00:15:42,200 --> 00:15:45,067 AS FAR AS CAREER, I'M DOING WHAT I WANT TO DO. 243 00:15:48,100 --> 00:15:49,367 BUT IT'S GETTING TO A POINT 244 00:15:49,367 --> 00:15:53,100 WHERE I CAN'T PHYSICALLY DO IT ANYMORE. 245 00:15:53,100 --> 00:15:54,500 IT'S HARD TO BE A GREAT TEACHER 246 00:15:54,500 --> 00:15:57,967 WHEN YOU'RE ALWAYS SITTING IN A CHAIR. 247 00:15:57,967 --> 00:16:00,367 IF I LOST THIS JOB, 248 00:16:00,367 --> 00:16:03,433 I HAVE NO IDEA HOW MY KIDS WOULD SURVIVE. 249 00:16:05,967 --> 00:16:10,267 FOOD IS DESTROYING MY LIFE. 250 00:16:10,267 --> 00:16:11,567 IT'S STARTING TO KEEP ME 251 00:16:11,567 --> 00:16:14,700 FROM EVERYTHING THAT'S IMPORTANT TO ME. 252 00:16:17,267 --> 00:16:19,267 BUT I JUST CAN'T STOP EATING. 253 00:16:28,467 --> 00:16:31,800 BECAUSE OF MY WEIGHT, WE HAVE ADJUSTED 254 00:16:31,800 --> 00:16:35,200 AS MUCH AS WE CAN TO MAKE THIS WORK, 255 00:16:35,200 --> 00:16:37,900 BUT IT'S PROGRESSIVELY GETTING WORSE. 256 00:16:48,233 --> 00:16:51,467 IT'S REALLY HEARTBREAKING AND SAD. 257 00:16:54,267 --> 00:16:56,200 I DON'T KNOW WHAT I WOULD DO 258 00:16:56,200 --> 00:17:00,333 IF SHE DIED OR SHE WAS STUCK IN THE BED OR SOMETHING. 259 00:17:00,333 --> 00:17:04,533 I WANT HER TO BE HEALTHY. 260 00:17:04,533 --> 00:17:07,700 Cynthia: AT THIS POINT, WE NEED SOMETHING DRASTIC TO HAPPEN 261 00:17:07,700 --> 00:17:10,167 TO GET US BACK TO WHERE 262 00:17:10,167 --> 00:17:14,267 I'M THE PARENT AND THEY'RE JUST KIDS. 263 00:17:19,733 --> 00:17:25,167 IF I DON'T DO SOMETHING DRASTIC, SOMETHING NOW, 264 00:17:25,167 --> 00:17:27,633 I'LL DIE AT AN EARLY AGE. 265 00:17:27,633 --> 00:17:30,633 I NEED TO BE HERE FOR MY KIDS. NOBODY ELSE IS HERE. 266 00:17:30,633 --> 00:17:34,133 THEY DON'T HAVE ANYTHING ELSE. 267 00:17:34,133 --> 00:17:41,067 THEY'VE HAD SUCH A HARD LIFE AND SO MUCH DISAPPOINTMENT. 268 00:17:41,067 --> 00:17:45,500 I DON'T WANT TO BE THE NEXT ONE TO ADD TO THAT. 269 00:17:45,500 --> 00:17:48,900 I'M IN A DIRE SITUATION 270 00:17:48,900 --> 00:17:53,800 BECAUSE I CAN FEEL MY BODY IS ALMOST DONE. 271 00:18:00,533 --> 00:18:05,367 ** 272 00:18:05,367 --> 00:18:08,900 YOU READY TO GO TO DANCE CLASS? 273 00:18:08,900 --> 00:18:11,700 YEAH. 274 00:18:11,700 --> 00:18:14,067 Ukiah: TODAY, I HAVE DANCE CLASS. 275 00:18:14,067 --> 00:18:16,767 I LIKE IT. I DO A LOT OF DIFFERENT DANCES. 276 00:18:16,767 --> 00:18:19,467 IT'S FUN. 277 00:18:19,467 --> 00:18:25,767 I HAVE A FESTIVAL COMING UP, AND I WANT MY MOM TO COME. 278 00:18:25,767 --> 00:18:27,900 ARE YOU GONNA BE ABLE TO COME TO THE FESTIVAL? 279 00:18:27,900 --> 00:18:30,500 Cynthia: PROBABLY NOT THIS YEAR. 280 00:18:30,500 --> 00:18:33,433 I'LL PROBABLY HAVE TO DO WHAT I DID LAST YEAR 281 00:18:33,433 --> 00:18:35,367 AND DROP YOU OFF 'CAUSE, YOU KNOW, 282 00:18:35,367 --> 00:18:36,767 I CAN'T DO ALL THAT WALKING. 283 00:18:36,767 --> 00:18:39,467 BUT I'M GONNA TRY TO WATCH YOU DANCE TODAY. 284 00:18:43,067 --> 00:18:46,767 Cynthia: I WANT TO BE OUT THERE WITH MY KIDS. 285 00:18:46,767 --> 00:18:50,933 THAT'S WHAT A PARENT IS SUPPOSED TO DO. 286 00:18:50,933 --> 00:18:53,267 I WANT TO SEE THEM DO THINGS. 287 00:18:53,267 --> 00:18:55,800 I'M PROUD OF THEM. 288 00:18:57,800 --> 00:19:00,067 I WANT TO BE THERE WHEN THEY LOOK UP IN THE STANDS 289 00:19:00,067 --> 00:19:01,367 BECAUSE KIDS NEED THAT. 290 00:19:01,367 --> 00:19:04,233 THAT MAKES THEM GO HARDER. 291 00:19:06,067 --> 00:19:09,067 IT'S TOO MUCH WALKING. I CAN'T DO IT. 292 00:19:13,967 --> 00:19:16,900 SHE'S A DANCER. SHE PERFORMS. 293 00:19:16,900 --> 00:19:20,700 AND I CAN'T MAKE IT TO HER PERFORMANCES. 294 00:19:20,700 --> 00:19:22,067 I KNOW SHE'S AMAZING, 295 00:19:22,067 --> 00:19:24,333 BUT I DON'T GET TO SEE WHAT THEY SEE. 296 00:19:27,933 --> 00:19:30,500 THAT'S SOMETHING I SHOULD BE ABLE TO DO. 297 00:19:36,467 --> 00:19:39,067 Woman: VERY NICE. 298 00:19:40,767 --> 00:19:43,067 [ Crying ] I'VE NEVER SEEN HER PRACTICE BEFORE. 299 00:19:43,067 --> 00:19:44,367 THIS IS THE FIRST TIME. 300 00:19:44,367 --> 00:19:46,633 SHE'S BEEN DANCING SINCE SHE WAS IN KINDERGARTEN. 301 00:19:50,267 --> 00:19:52,867 I WANT TO BE ABLE TO SEE EVERYTHING SHE DOES. 302 00:19:58,200 --> 00:20:00,767 I SEE THAT I'M HARMING THEM AS MUCH AS I'M HARMING ME 303 00:20:00,767 --> 00:20:02,533 'CAUSE I'M NOT LETTING THEM LIVE 304 00:20:02,533 --> 00:20:06,000 TO THEIR FULL POTENTIAL, AS WELL. 305 00:20:08,600 --> 00:20:12,267 THEY JUST SACRIFICE BECAUSE THEY LOVE ME, 306 00:20:12,267 --> 00:20:15,067 AND THEY DON'T ARGUE OR GRIPE ABOUT IT. 307 00:20:18,600 --> 00:20:21,233 BUT I'M MISSING THEIR WHOLE CHILDHOOD. 308 00:20:32,333 --> 00:20:34,867 YOU ALL SET TO GO? 309 00:20:40,533 --> 00:20:41,767 KEYS, PLEASE. 310 00:20:41,767 --> 00:20:43,333 Clarence: WE'RE A CLOSE-KNIT FAMILY, 311 00:20:43,333 --> 00:20:45,800 AND I DEFINITELY WANT MY SISTER TO GET HELP. 312 00:20:45,800 --> 00:20:47,233 I'VE SEEN HER STRUGGLES 313 00:20:47,233 --> 00:20:48,900 THROUGHOUT HER LIFE WITH HER WEIGHT, 314 00:20:48,900 --> 00:20:53,400 AND I DEFINITELY WANT TO GIVE HER ANYTHING THAT SHE NEEDS. 315 00:20:53,400 --> 00:20:56,267 SO I DON'T WANT HER TO HAVE TO STRESS OUT ABOUT THE DRIVE DOWN. 316 00:20:56,267 --> 00:20:58,300 I CAN DO ALL OF THAT AND LET HER CONCENTRATE 317 00:20:58,300 --> 00:21:00,900 ON WHAT SHE NEEDS TO DO. 318 00:21:00,900 --> 00:21:04,167 Cynthia: SEEING UKIAH DO BALLET WAS A WAKE-UP CALL. 319 00:21:04,167 --> 00:21:06,200 I HAVE TO GET HELP. 320 00:21:06,200 --> 00:21:08,467 BUT THIS IS GONNA BE A HARD DRIVE -- 321 00:21:08,467 --> 00:21:12,367 IN THE CAR FOR EIGHT HOURS. 322 00:21:12,367 --> 00:21:13,667 I KNOW FOR CERTAIN 323 00:21:13,667 --> 00:21:16,733 THAT IF I DON'T GET MY WEIGHT UNDER CONTROL, 324 00:21:16,733 --> 00:21:20,233 INEVITABLY MY LIFE WILL BE SHORTENED. 325 00:21:20,233 --> 00:21:23,900 BUT MY BIGGEST FEAR IS THAT I WILL DRIVE 326 00:21:23,900 --> 00:21:26,267 ALL THE WAY TO HOUSTON AND HE'LL SAY 327 00:21:26,267 --> 00:21:29,600 THAT THERE'S NOTHING HE CAN DO FOR ME, 328 00:21:29,600 --> 00:21:32,500 'CAUSE I FEEL LIKE THIS IS MY LAST SHOT. 329 00:21:32,500 --> 00:21:35,667 YOU'RE GONNA HAVE TO EXERCISE. HOW YOU FEEL ABOUT THAT? 330 00:21:35,667 --> 00:21:37,867 I DON'T WANT TO DO IT, BUT I KNOW I HAVE TO. 331 00:21:37,867 --> 00:21:41,167 BY THE TIME YOU GO TO WORK AND THEN YOU DEAL WITH KIDS, 332 00:21:41,167 --> 00:21:43,567 WHEN IS THERE GONNA BE TIME FOR YOU TO DO IT? 333 00:21:43,567 --> 00:21:47,900 WELL, DON'T PUSH, 'CAUSE IF YOU PUSH I'M GONNA PUSH BACK. 334 00:21:54,467 --> 00:21:57,400 I FEEL LIKE THIS IS MAKE-OR-BREAK FOR ME. 335 00:21:57,400 --> 00:22:00,533 IF DR. NOW DOESN'T THINK THAT I'M A GOOD CANDIDATE, 336 00:22:00,533 --> 00:22:05,767 I DON'T KNOW WHAT MY OTHER OPTIONS ARE. 337 00:22:05,767 --> 00:22:09,200 MISS WELLS. 338 00:22:09,200 --> 00:22:11,967 I'M REALLY NERVOUS. 339 00:22:11,967 --> 00:22:15,767 I HAVEN'T CHECKED MY WEIGHT IN YEARS. 340 00:22:15,767 --> 00:22:19,600 AND I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT I'M ABOUT TO LEARN ABOUT MYSELF. 341 00:22:31,533 --> 00:22:35,067 610 IS NOT WHAT I WANTED TO SEE. 342 00:22:35,067 --> 00:22:38,767 I KNOW I NEED TO DO SOMETHING, AND I NEED TO DO IT NOW. 343 00:22:38,767 --> 00:22:41,400 I JUST HOPE THE DOCTOR HELPS ME. 344 00:22:41,400 --> 00:22:43,300 [ KNOCK ON DOOR ] 345 00:22:43,300 --> 00:22:48,200 HELLO. HOW Y'ALL DOING? 346 00:22:48,200 --> 00:22:49,333 I'M DR. NOWZARADAN. 347 00:22:49,333 --> 00:22:50,533 I'M CYNTHIA WELLS. 348 00:22:50,533 --> 00:22:52,167 ALL RIGHT. NICE TO MEET YOU. 349 00:22:52,167 --> 00:22:54,100 I'M CLARENCE. I'M CYNTHIA'S BROTHER. 350 00:22:54,100 --> 00:22:55,500 -HOW YOU DOING? -ALL RIGHT. 351 00:22:55,500 --> 00:22:58,833 SO, YOU WEIGH 610 POUNDS. 352 00:22:58,833 --> 00:23:00,767 TELL ME ABOUT YOUR EATING HABITS. 353 00:23:00,767 --> 00:23:02,967 MY WEIGHT HAS GOTTEN OUT OF CONTROL, 354 00:23:02,967 --> 00:23:06,567 AND I HAVE SOME PRETTY UNHEALTHY EATING HABITS. 355 00:23:06,567 --> 00:23:10,567 I EAT IN EXCESS IF IT'S SOMETHING THAT I REALLY ENJOY. 356 00:23:10,567 --> 00:23:11,800 I EAT A LOT OF IT. 357 00:23:11,800 --> 00:23:13,267 SO YOU DON'T GET FULL? 358 00:23:13,267 --> 00:23:16,067 I GET FULL, BUT IF IT'S SOMETHING I ENJOY, 359 00:23:16,067 --> 00:23:18,167 I'LL JUST KEEP EATING. 360 00:23:18,167 --> 00:23:22,133 ALL RIGHT. ANYBODY ELSE IN YOUR FAMILY IS OVERWEIGHT? 361 00:23:22,133 --> 00:23:24,100 EVERYBODY IN MY FAMILY IS OVERWEIGHT. 362 00:23:24,100 --> 00:23:26,667 -HE'S NOT. -HE IS. 363 00:23:26,667 --> 00:23:28,600 HE'S PROBABLY THE SMALLEST ONE. 364 00:23:28,600 --> 00:23:31,200 ALL RIGHT. ARE YOU ACTIVE AT ALL? 365 00:23:31,200 --> 00:23:33,733 I'M A TEACHER, SO I HAVE TO BE ACTIVE FOR THAT. 366 00:23:33,733 --> 00:23:35,667 OKAY. DO YOU EAT AT HOME? 367 00:23:35,667 --> 00:23:38,200 -YES. -WHO IS IN THE HOUSE BESIDE YOU? 368 00:23:38,200 --> 00:23:39,933 MY FIVE CHILDREN. 369 00:23:39,933 --> 00:23:42,967 SO YOU COOK FOR EVERYBODY AND FOR YOURSELF, TOO. 370 00:23:42,967 --> 00:23:45,100 YES. 371 00:23:45,100 --> 00:23:47,833 Dr. Nowzaradan: CYNTHIA IS OVER 600 POUNDS, 372 00:23:47,833 --> 00:23:49,667 AND IT'S QUITE REMARKABLE 373 00:23:49,667 --> 00:23:52,067 THAT SHE CAN TAKE CARE OF FIVE CHILDREN 374 00:23:52,067 --> 00:23:53,667 AT THAT WEIGHT. 375 00:23:53,667 --> 00:23:56,900 BUT SHE'S MAKING FOOD FOR A LARGE HOUSEHOLD, 376 00:23:56,900 --> 00:23:58,733 WHICH MEANS THERE IS A LOT OF FOOD 377 00:23:58,733 --> 00:24:00,933 CONSTANTLY IN THAT HOUSE. 378 00:24:00,933 --> 00:24:04,267 SO SHE'S AROUND FOOD ALL DAY LONG. 379 00:24:04,267 --> 00:24:05,967 THAT'S GONNA BE A VERY BIG CHALLENGE 380 00:24:05,967 --> 00:24:08,900 FOR HER TO CHANGE HER EATING HABIT. 381 00:24:08,900 --> 00:24:12,900 YOU'RE A MOM, AND YOU HAVE RESPONSIBILITY TO YOUR KIDS. 382 00:24:12,900 --> 00:24:14,933 SO FROM THIS POINT ON, 383 00:24:14,933 --> 00:24:18,767 WE ARE GOING TO MAKE CHANGES IN YOUR EATING HABIT. 384 00:24:18,767 --> 00:24:21,867 I GOT SOME SCHOOL MATERIAL. 385 00:24:21,867 --> 00:24:25,400 YOU KNOW HOW THE HOMEWORK WORKS. 386 00:24:25,400 --> 00:24:28,800 YOU NEED TO STICK WITH A LOW-CARB DIET 387 00:24:28,800 --> 00:24:31,767 AND EAT ONLY THREE TIMES A DAY AND NO SNACKING. 388 00:24:31,767 --> 00:24:35,600 THIS WILL BE A 1,200-CALORIE-A-DAY DIET. 389 00:24:35,600 --> 00:24:40,100 WHAT IS YOUR ABILITY TO DO EXERCISE AND WALK? 390 00:24:40,100 --> 00:24:41,633 I REALLY DON'T DO A LOT WALKING. 391 00:24:41,633 --> 00:24:43,367 HOW MUCH YOU CAN WALK 392 00:24:43,367 --> 00:24:47,100 BEFORE YOU FEEL TIRED AND GIVE UP? 393 00:24:47,100 --> 00:24:50,367 MAYBE LIKE FROM HERE TO YOUR WAITING ROOM. 394 00:24:50,367 --> 00:24:51,933 -THAT'S IT? -[ LAUGHS ] 395 00:24:51,933 --> 00:24:55,133 THAT'S ABOUT AS MUCH AS SHE WANTS TO DO. 396 00:24:55,133 --> 00:24:57,467 OKAY, SO, YOU'RE 42. 397 00:24:57,467 --> 00:25:01,167 AND THE LIKELIHOOD THAT YOU'RE GONNA MAKE IT TO 50 398 00:25:01,167 --> 00:25:03,667 ARE NOT VERY GOOD IF YOU KEEP THIS UP. 399 00:25:03,667 --> 00:25:06,200 SO IF YOU WANT TO BE AROUND FOR YOUR KIDS, 400 00:25:06,200 --> 00:25:09,467 YOU NEED TO START MAKING CHANGES NOW. 401 00:25:09,467 --> 00:25:14,100 I WANT YOU TO WALK, REST, WALK, REST. 402 00:25:14,100 --> 00:25:16,933 HOW MUCH YOU WALK IN ONE DAY IS GONNA BE IMPORTANT. 403 00:25:16,933 --> 00:25:18,800 IF WE STICK WITH THIS DIET, 404 00:25:18,800 --> 00:25:22,233 YOU SHOULD BE ABLE TO LOSE 30 POUNDS IN ONE MONTH. 405 00:25:22,233 --> 00:25:24,900 AND IF YOU CAN MAKE THESE CHANGES, 406 00:25:24,900 --> 00:25:26,833 WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY COULD BE AN OPTION 407 00:25:26,833 --> 00:25:29,100 -FOR YOU DOWN THE ROAD. -OKAY. 408 00:25:29,100 --> 00:25:31,767 THIS NEXT MONTH WILL SHOW ME WHETHER OR NOT 409 00:25:31,767 --> 00:25:34,467 CYNTHIA CAN GET CONTROL OF HER HOME DYNAMIC 410 00:25:34,467 --> 00:25:36,533 AND COMMIT TO THIS CHANGE 411 00:25:36,533 --> 00:25:41,200 OR IF SHE IS UNABLE OR UNWILLING TO DO WHAT SHE NEEDS. 412 00:25:41,200 --> 00:25:43,067 -OKAY, I'LL SEE Y'ALL LATER. -THANK YOU. 413 00:25:43,067 --> 00:25:44,233 -OKAY. -THANK YOU. 414 00:25:44,233 --> 00:25:47,500 CYNTHIA IS GOING TO HAVE TO REALIZE 415 00:25:47,500 --> 00:25:50,633 JUST HOW HARD THIS IS GOING TO BE FOR HER. 416 00:25:50,633 --> 00:25:53,667 SO... YOU GONNA WALK? 417 00:25:53,667 --> 00:25:56,633 I DON'T NEED YOU BREATHING DOWN MY THROAT. 418 00:25:56,633 --> 00:25:58,633 I JUST DON'T. IT'S NOT HOW I FUNCTION. 419 00:25:58,633 --> 00:26:00,833 AND YOU KNOW THAT. I'M NOT TRYING -- 420 00:26:00,833 --> 00:26:03,467 OKAY, WELL, THEN LET ME DO THIS. 421 00:26:06,167 --> 00:26:07,733 ALL RIGHT. 422 00:26:07,733 --> 00:26:09,600 I DO HAVE SOME RESERVATIONS 423 00:26:09,600 --> 00:26:12,300 ABOUT HOW EASY SHE THINKS IT'S GONNA BE 424 00:26:12,300 --> 00:26:15,700 BECAUSE 30 DAYS TO LOSE 30 POUNDS, 425 00:26:15,700 --> 00:26:19,167 I THINK, IS GONNA BE A CHALLENGE FOR HER. 426 00:26:19,167 --> 00:26:22,167 Cynthia: I REALLY FEEL REALLY GOOD ABOUT THE APPOINTMENT. 427 00:26:22,167 --> 00:26:26,600 THE THINGS THAT THE DOCTOR ASKED ME TO DO ARE VERY DOABLE. 428 00:26:31,067 --> 00:26:37,067 I KNOW IT WILL BE TOUGH, BUT THIS IS MY TIME TO CHANGE. 429 00:26:37,067 --> 00:26:41,100 I'LL PUSH THROUGH 'CAUSE IT'S JUST WHO I AM. 430 00:26:44,967 --> 00:26:47,367 ** 431 00:27:02,600 --> 00:27:05,667 THAT'S ONE. 432 00:27:05,667 --> 00:27:08,667 IT'S BEEN A COUPLE OF WEEKS SINCE I'VE SEEN DR. NOW, 433 00:27:08,667 --> 00:27:11,600 AND I'M DOING MY BEST TO FOLLOW HIS PLANS. 434 00:27:11,600 --> 00:27:13,167 THAT'S TWO. 435 00:27:13,167 --> 00:27:15,900 [ BREATHING HEAVILY ] 436 00:27:15,900 --> 00:27:17,900 THREE. 437 00:27:21,067 --> 00:27:22,933 I'M DOING WHAT I NEED, 438 00:27:22,933 --> 00:27:25,667 BUT IT'S HARD TO RESIST ALL THE SNACK FOOD. 439 00:27:25,667 --> 00:27:27,933 THIS IS THE KIDS' SNACK CABINET. 440 00:27:27,933 --> 00:27:31,800 I ALSO HAVE SNACKS STACKED UP IN CRATES. 441 00:27:31,800 --> 00:27:34,500 SO A LOT OF DAYS I DON'T HARDLY EAT ANYTHING AT HOME 442 00:27:34,500 --> 00:27:37,100 BECAUSE I DON'T WANT TO GIVE IN TO TEMPTATION. 443 00:27:41,233 --> 00:27:42,667 BUT IT BECOMES A LOT HARDER 444 00:27:42,667 --> 00:27:44,300 WHEN I LEAVE THE HOUSE 445 00:27:44,300 --> 00:27:47,633 WITH FIVE KIDS AND ALL THEIR ACTIVITIES. 446 00:27:47,633 --> 00:27:49,433 SEATBELTS. 447 00:27:49,433 --> 00:27:54,233 THERE'S JUST NO TIME TO DO ANYTHING BUT GET FAST FOOD. 448 00:27:54,233 --> 00:27:57,733 AND THERE'S REALLY NO SUCH THING AS HEALTHY FAST FOOD. 449 00:27:57,733 --> 00:28:00,067 -Y'ALL WANT ICE CREAM? -YES! 450 00:28:00,067 --> 00:28:01,900 [ LAUGHS ] 451 00:28:01,900 --> 00:28:03,267 IT'S BEEN A REALLY LONG DAY. 452 00:28:03,267 --> 00:28:06,733 I'M GONNA GET THEM A SNACK AND GET ME SOMETHING TO EAT. 453 00:28:10,267 --> 00:28:13,533 CAN I HAVE TWO SINGLE DIPS OF VANILLA IN A CUP? 454 00:28:13,533 --> 00:28:17,333 -ANYTHING ELSE FOR YOU? -A LARGE FRY AND A SMALL FRY. 455 00:28:17,333 --> 00:28:20,067 -ANYTHING ELSE? -THAT'S IT. 456 00:28:20,067 --> 00:28:23,267 THANK YOU. 457 00:28:23,267 --> 00:28:26,067 IT'S HARD TO GO 458 00:28:26,067 --> 00:28:28,733 FROM BEING ABLE TO EAT WHATEVER I WANT 459 00:28:28,733 --> 00:28:33,633 TO BEING LIMITED TO 1,200 CALORIES A DAY. 460 00:28:33,633 --> 00:28:37,733 BUT I AM TRYING TO EAT LESS. 461 00:28:37,733 --> 00:28:40,067 I'M GOING TO SEE THE DOCTOR IN A COUPLE OF WEEKS, 462 00:28:40,067 --> 00:28:43,633 AND HE'S EXPECTING ME TO LOSE 30 POUNDS, 463 00:28:43,633 --> 00:28:45,633 AND I THINK I'M DOING THAT. 464 00:28:51,767 --> 00:28:53,733 ** 465 00:29:00,633 --> 00:29:04,300 I'M GOING TO SEE DR. NOWZARADAN TODAY FOR MY SECOND APPOINTMENT. 466 00:29:04,300 --> 00:29:08,067 I'M REALLY NERVOUS ONLY 'CAUSE I HAVEN'T BEEN ABLE TO WEIGH 467 00:29:08,067 --> 00:29:10,533 OR KEEP TRACK OF, LIKE, MY PROGRESS. 468 00:29:10,533 --> 00:29:14,100 SO I DON'T REALLY KNOW, LIKE, WHERE I STAND. 469 00:29:14,100 --> 00:29:15,833 YOU PUT IN THE WORK, RIGHT? 470 00:29:15,833 --> 00:29:17,633 I DID THE BEST I COULD DO, 471 00:29:17,633 --> 00:29:20,967 BUT I HAVEN'T BEEN 100% GOOD ALL THE TIME. 472 00:29:23,367 --> 00:29:26,067 DR. NOW -- HE WANTED ME TO LOSE 30 POUNDS 473 00:29:26,067 --> 00:29:28,067 AND GET UNDER 580. 474 00:29:28,067 --> 00:29:30,200 CYNTHIA WELLS. 475 00:29:34,333 --> 00:29:36,700 AND I HOPE THAT'S WHAT I DID. 476 00:29:39,267 --> 00:29:41,800 Woman: 586. 477 00:29:46,733 --> 00:29:50,467 24 POUNDS. 478 00:29:50,467 --> 00:29:54,167 I AM 6 POUNDS SHORT. 479 00:29:54,167 --> 00:29:57,133 I DON'T KNOW HOW THE DOCTOR'S GONNA REACT. 480 00:29:57,133 --> 00:30:00,067 BUT I HOPE AT LEAST HE SEES I'M TRYING. 481 00:30:02,833 --> 00:30:05,733 -A LITTLE. -I'M STILL PROUD OF YOU, THOUGH. 482 00:30:05,733 --> 00:30:07,767 [ KNOCK ON DOOR ] 483 00:30:07,767 --> 00:30:10,300 -HOW Y'ALL DOING? -GOOD. YOU? 484 00:30:10,300 --> 00:30:13,933 ALL RIGHT. SO YOU LOST 24 POUNDS. 485 00:30:13,933 --> 00:30:15,167 TELL ME ABOUT YOUR EATING HABIT 486 00:30:15,167 --> 00:30:16,833 AND WHAT CHANGES YOU MADE. 487 00:30:16,833 --> 00:30:18,267 IN THE BEGINNING, IT WAS KIND OF HARD, 488 00:30:18,267 --> 00:30:21,467 AND I JUST -- I WAS AFRAID TO EAT THE WRONG THING. 489 00:30:21,467 --> 00:30:24,600 AND THEN I WOULD BE SUPER-HUNGRY BY THE END OF THE DAY, 490 00:30:24,600 --> 00:30:26,700 AND I WOULD MAKE BAD CHOICES. 491 00:30:26,700 --> 00:30:29,300 BUT, LIKE, BY WEEK, MAYBE, 2.5, 492 00:30:29,300 --> 00:30:32,933 I WAS MAKING GOOD CHOICES, HIGH-PROTEIN FOODS. 493 00:30:32,933 --> 00:30:36,400 YOUR EATING DISORDER IS NOT GONNA GO AWAY 494 00:30:36,400 --> 00:30:38,200 UNLESS YOU KNOW WHAT'S WRONG WITH IT. 495 00:30:38,200 --> 00:30:40,567 AND THAT'S GONNA BE THE KEY ISSUE FOR YOU 496 00:30:40,567 --> 00:30:44,033 BEFORE SURGERY AND EVEN AFTER SURGERY. 497 00:30:44,033 --> 00:30:46,100 Dr. Nowzaradan: CYNTHIA HAS MADE SOME PROGRESS, 498 00:30:46,100 --> 00:30:48,400 AND I CAN SEE SHE'S TRYING. 499 00:30:48,400 --> 00:30:51,767 BUT SHE'S STILL NOT READY FOR SURGERY. 500 00:30:51,767 --> 00:30:55,200 SHE'S STILL LETTING CIRCUMSTANCES IN HER LIFE 501 00:30:55,200 --> 00:30:57,067 DICTATE HER EATING HABITS, 502 00:30:57,067 --> 00:31:00,167 AND SHE NEEDS TO LEARN MORE CONTROL. 503 00:31:00,167 --> 00:31:01,933 SO FOR THIS NEXT MONTH, 504 00:31:01,933 --> 00:31:04,100 I WANT YOU TO LOSE ANOTHER 30 POUNDS 505 00:31:04,100 --> 00:31:06,133 LIKE YOU WERE SUPPOSED TO. 506 00:31:06,133 --> 00:31:07,967 SHOW ME YOU CAN DO THIS. 507 00:31:07,967 --> 00:31:11,067 IF YOU DO, I'LL APPROVE YOU FOR SURGERY, 508 00:31:11,067 --> 00:31:13,933 BUT NOT AT THIS POINT YET, OKAY? 509 00:31:13,933 --> 00:31:15,400 IF YOU STICK WITH THE DIET, 510 00:31:15,400 --> 00:31:18,367 YOU COULD EASILY LOSE 30 POUNDS IN A MONTH. 511 00:31:18,367 --> 00:31:20,100 YOU CAN DO THIS. 512 00:31:20,100 --> 00:31:21,433 I'LL SEE YOU IN A MONTH. 513 00:31:25,600 --> 00:31:27,067 [ DOOR CLOSES ] 514 00:31:27,067 --> 00:31:28,700 Cynthia: I WAS 6 POUNDS SHORT. 515 00:31:28,700 --> 00:31:30,667 I'M EXTREMELY LET DOWN 516 00:31:30,667 --> 00:31:34,333 THAT I'M STILL NOT APPROVED FOR SURGERY. 517 00:31:34,333 --> 00:31:38,600 I JUST FEEL LIKE I'M FIGHTING A LOSING BATTLE. 518 00:31:55,133 --> 00:31:58,100 [ HORN HONKING ] 519 00:32:15,633 --> 00:32:19,167 SHAQUILLE. WILL YOU GET MY PURSE FOR ME? 520 00:32:19,167 --> 00:32:20,900 HEY. WILL YOU HELP ME GET UP? 521 00:32:20,900 --> 00:32:22,700 ONE, TWO...THREE. 522 00:32:25,300 --> 00:32:29,267 IT'S BEEN A HARD COUPLE OF WEEKS. 523 00:32:29,267 --> 00:32:32,900 I WAS PROUD OF THE PROGRESS I MADE. 524 00:32:32,900 --> 00:32:34,367 BUT THE MORE I THOUGHT ABOUT 525 00:32:34,367 --> 00:32:36,967 HOW IT WASN'T GOOD ENOUGH FOR DR. NOW, 526 00:32:36,967 --> 00:32:41,467 THE MORE DISCOURAGED AND FRUSTRATED I'VE BEEN. 527 00:32:41,467 --> 00:32:44,800 AND NOW I'M FEELING SICK AND RUN-DOWN, 528 00:32:44,800 --> 00:32:49,200 SO THE LAST THING I WANT TO DO IS EXERCISE. 529 00:32:49,200 --> 00:32:52,300 AND ON TOP OF THAT, IT'S GETTING EXPENSIVE 530 00:32:52,300 --> 00:32:56,267 TO TRY TO BUY HEALTHY OPTIONS FOR EVERY MEAL. 531 00:32:56,267 --> 00:32:58,133 SHAQUILLE, YOU WANT TO GO GET SOMETHING TO EAT? 532 00:32:58,133 --> 00:33:00,167 YES. 533 00:33:00,167 --> 00:33:01,733 I THINK THERE HAS TO BE 534 00:33:01,733 --> 00:33:04,533 A REASONABLE BALANCE BETWEEN IT ALL. 535 00:33:04,533 --> 00:33:07,600 SO I DON'T THINK EVERY MEAL HAS TO BE THE BEST CHOICE. 536 00:33:07,600 --> 00:33:09,400 LET ME HAVE A LARGE PHILLY SANDWICH, 537 00:33:09,400 --> 00:33:11,367 A LARGE ORDER OF POTATO CAKES, 538 00:33:11,367 --> 00:33:13,667 AND A LARGE ORDER OF CURLY FRIES. 539 00:33:13,667 --> 00:33:16,867 THANK YOU. THANK YOU. 540 00:33:16,867 --> 00:33:19,267 -HAVE A NICE DAY. -YOU TOO. 541 00:33:25,333 --> 00:33:27,467 [ SIGHS ] 542 00:33:31,133 --> 00:33:34,900 I'M STILL COMMITTED TO THE DIET, 543 00:33:34,900 --> 00:33:36,600 BUT RIGHT NOW I'M NOT EVEN FOCUSED 544 00:33:36,600 --> 00:33:39,900 ON THE NEXT DOCTOR VISIT. 545 00:33:39,900 --> 00:33:42,500 I'M JUST TRYING TO GET THROUGH ONE DAY AT A TIME. 546 00:33:52,733 --> 00:33:56,833 I'M HERE FOR MY THIRD APPOINTMENT WITH DR. NOW. 547 00:33:56,833 --> 00:33:59,267 CLARENCE AND JORDAN DROVE DOWN WITH ME, 548 00:33:59,267 --> 00:34:01,067 BUT I ASKED THEM TO STAY IN THE CAR 549 00:34:01,067 --> 00:34:03,567 BECAUSE I REALLY DON'T WANT THEM TO SEE THE SCALE. 550 00:34:03,567 --> 00:34:05,533 CYNTHIA WELLS. 551 00:34:05,533 --> 00:34:07,467 THE DOCTOR, HE WANTED ME TO LOSE 552 00:34:07,467 --> 00:34:10,833 ANOTHER 30 POUNDS THIS PAST MONTH 553 00:34:10,833 --> 00:34:15,767 AND GET BELOW 556. 554 00:34:15,767 --> 00:34:18,967 BUT I'M WORRIED I DIDN'T HIT MY GOAL AGAIN. 555 00:34:29,067 --> 00:34:31,867 I THOUGHT I MADE A LITTLE PROGRESS. 556 00:34:31,867 --> 00:34:36,300 BUT I HAD NO IDEA I'D GONE IN THE WRONG DIRECTION. 557 00:34:36,300 --> 00:34:38,067 HI. HOW YOU DOING, CYNTHIA? 558 00:34:38,067 --> 00:34:39,300 I'M DOING GOOD. 559 00:34:39,300 --> 00:34:43,133 ALL RIGHT, SO, I NOTICED YOU GAINED 4 POUNDS. 560 00:34:43,133 --> 00:34:44,467 MM-HMM. 561 00:34:44,467 --> 00:34:47,067 SO WHAT'S GOING ON WITH THAT? 562 00:34:47,067 --> 00:34:49,567 I'VE BEEN KIND OF SICK THE LAST COUPLE OF WEEKS. 563 00:34:49,567 --> 00:34:51,533 WHAT KIND OF SICKNESS? 564 00:34:51,533 --> 00:34:53,933 I'VE HAD, LIKE, AN UPPER-RESPIRATORY. 565 00:34:53,933 --> 00:34:56,400 HAVING AN UPPER-RESPIRATORY INFECTION 566 00:34:56,400 --> 00:34:59,900 IS NOT AN INDICATION OF FALLING OFF YOUR DIET. 567 00:34:59,900 --> 00:35:01,900 I HAVEN'T BEEN GOING TO THE GYM. 568 00:35:01,900 --> 00:35:03,600 -WHAT? -I HAVEN'T BEEN EXERCISING. 569 00:35:03,600 --> 00:35:05,333 WE'RE NOT TALKING ABOUT EXERCISING. 570 00:35:05,333 --> 00:35:07,433 WE'RE TALKING ABOUT YOUR EATING HABIT. 571 00:35:07,433 --> 00:35:09,167 I PROBABLY EAT ONCE A DAY. 572 00:35:09,167 --> 00:35:10,800 OKAY, IF YOU'RE EATING ONCE A DAY 573 00:35:10,800 --> 00:35:12,600 AND YOU'RE GAINING 4 POUNDS, 574 00:35:12,600 --> 00:35:16,067 WE GOT A REAL SERIOUS PROBLEM WITH YOU. 575 00:35:16,067 --> 00:35:18,367 EVEN IF YOU'RE EATING ONE TIME A DAY, 576 00:35:18,367 --> 00:35:21,200 I CAN TELL YOUR CALORIE INTAKE RIGHT NOW 577 00:35:21,200 --> 00:35:24,267 IS ABOUT THREE TO FOUR TIMES WHAT IT SHOULD BE. 578 00:35:24,267 --> 00:35:25,967 THIS IS NOT THE SITUATION 579 00:35:25,967 --> 00:35:28,633 THAT YOU'RE GONNA BE APPROVED FOR SURGERY. 580 00:35:28,633 --> 00:35:32,233 YOU NEED TO LOSE THE 30 POUNDS IF YOU WANT THIS CHANCE. 581 00:35:32,233 --> 00:35:34,333 OKAY? 582 00:35:34,333 --> 00:35:36,567 [ DOOR CLOSES ] 583 00:35:38,433 --> 00:35:42,767 Cynthia: REALLY? IT'S FOUR POUNDS. 584 00:35:42,767 --> 00:35:44,200 I DON'T THINK THE DOCTOR REALIZED 585 00:35:44,200 --> 00:35:46,867 HOW MUCH COMING TO HOUSTON ONCE A MONTH 586 00:35:46,867 --> 00:35:49,967 STRESSES MY FINANCES. 587 00:35:49,967 --> 00:35:53,667 I HAVEN'T BEEN ABLE TO AFFORD THE THINGS THAT I NEED TO EAT, 588 00:35:53,667 --> 00:35:56,467 SO I'VE EATEN WHAT I COULD. 589 00:35:56,467 --> 00:35:58,433 I DON'T THINK HE TAKES INTO ACCOUNT 590 00:35:58,433 --> 00:36:01,067 THE SACRIFICES THAT ARE BEING MADE. 591 00:36:01,067 --> 00:36:02,800 IT PISSES ME OFF. 592 00:36:02,800 --> 00:36:04,200 Clarence: HOW'D EVERYTHING GO? 593 00:36:04,200 --> 00:36:05,567 I GAINED 4 POUNDS, 594 00:36:05,567 --> 00:36:07,867 AND THAT WAS A MAJOR ISSUE FOR HIM. 595 00:36:07,867 --> 00:36:10,067 SO WHAT DID HE SAY THE NEXT STEPS ARE? 596 00:36:10,067 --> 00:36:11,567 I HAVE TO LOSE 30 MORE POUNDS. 597 00:36:11,567 --> 00:36:13,567 BY...? 598 00:36:13,567 --> 00:36:15,633 WHATEVER. I'M OVER IT. 599 00:36:15,633 --> 00:36:17,333 IT'S 4 POUNDS. 600 00:36:17,333 --> 00:36:19,700 I FEEL LIKE I GOT BEAT UP OVER 4 POUNDS. 601 00:36:19,700 --> 00:36:22,267 -ALL HE CARES ABOUT IS NUMBERS. -WE'LL GET BACK ON TRACK. 602 00:36:22,267 --> 00:36:23,467 AND I'M STRUGGLING TO PAY 603 00:36:23,467 --> 00:36:26,100 TO GET DOWN TO TEXAS FOR THIS DOCTOR! 604 00:36:26,100 --> 00:36:28,733 MY KIDS LOOK AT ME EVERY GOD [BLEEP] NIGHT, 605 00:36:28,733 --> 00:36:29,967 "MAMA, WHAT'S FOR DINNER?" 606 00:36:29,967 --> 00:36:32,900 SOMETIMES I DON'T HAVE A [BLEEP] ANSWER! 607 00:36:32,900 --> 00:36:34,400 I DON'T HAVE AN ANSWER 608 00:36:34,400 --> 00:36:37,467 'CAUSE I'M TRYING TO GET MY ASS DOWN HERE! 609 00:36:37,467 --> 00:36:39,700 AND IF THIS IS WHAT IT'S GONNA TURN ME INTO, 610 00:36:39,700 --> 00:36:42,133 THEN I DON'T WANT TO DO IT. 611 00:36:42,133 --> 00:36:43,833 I'M OVER IT. 612 00:36:43,833 --> 00:36:45,300 YOU'RE DOING IT FOR YOUR KIDS. 613 00:36:45,300 --> 00:36:46,933 YOU'RE DOING IT FOR THE PEOPLE WHO CARE ABOUT YOU, 614 00:36:46,933 --> 00:36:48,500 SO KEEP GOING IN THAT DIRECTION. 615 00:36:48,500 --> 00:36:49,900 BUT I'M SACRIFICING! 616 00:36:49,900 --> 00:36:52,367 LOOK WHAT THE [BLEEP] I'M SACRIFICING, CLARENCE! 617 00:36:52,367 --> 00:36:54,300 IT'S ME AND MY KIDS, NOBODY ELSE! 618 00:36:54,300 --> 00:36:56,400 NO, BECAUSE I GAVE UP THIS WEEKEND 619 00:36:56,400 --> 00:36:57,733 WHEN I WAS SUPPOSED TO BE WITH MY DAUGHTER. 620 00:36:57,733 --> 00:36:59,200 I'M GIVING UP FOR YOU. 621 00:36:59,200 --> 00:37:00,933 I'M SACRIFICING FOR YOU. 622 00:37:00,933 --> 00:37:02,900 I'M PUTTING MY JOB ON THE LINE FOR YOU, TOO. 623 00:37:02,900 --> 00:37:06,067 SO THAT IS NOT JUST YOU GIVING UP STUFF. 624 00:37:06,067 --> 00:37:09,067 AND I UNDERSTAND YOU'RE FRUSTRATED, BUT IT'S ALL OF US. 625 00:37:09,067 --> 00:37:10,700 WE'RE IN THIS TOGETHER WITH YOU. 626 00:37:10,700 --> 00:37:12,167 YOU'RE NOT GOING THROUGH IT BY YOURSELF. 627 00:37:12,167 --> 00:37:14,067 WE HURT JUST RIGHT ALONG WITH YOU. 628 00:37:14,067 --> 00:37:15,333 WELL, YOU KNOW WHAT? 629 00:37:15,333 --> 00:37:17,667 WE DON'T HAVE TO DO THIS [BLEEP] NO MORE. 630 00:37:17,667 --> 00:37:20,067 -YES, WE DO! -NO, THE [BLEEP] WE DON'T! 631 00:37:20,067 --> 00:37:21,267 CYNTHIA. 632 00:37:21,267 --> 00:37:22,700 WE DON'T HAVE TO DO THIS [BLEEP] ANYMORE! 633 00:37:22,700 --> 00:37:25,433 NOBODY HAS TO SACRIFICE [BLEEP] ANYMORE! 634 00:37:25,433 --> 00:37:27,633 WE CAN GO BACK TO OUR FAT LIVES 635 00:37:27,633 --> 00:37:30,200 THE WAY THE [BLEEP] WE WERE AND [BLEEP] ALL THESE [BLEEP] 636 00:37:34,967 --> 00:37:40,867 ** 637 00:37:40,867 --> 00:37:42,700 Cynthia: HEY, I'M GONNA GO WALKING. 638 00:37:42,700 --> 00:37:44,567 -CAN I COME? -SURE. 639 00:37:47,133 --> 00:37:48,967 Cynthia: I'VE BEEN A LITTLE EMOTIONAL 640 00:37:48,967 --> 00:37:52,633 SINCE MY LAST DOCTOR'S APPOINTMENT. 641 00:37:52,633 --> 00:37:54,067 I FELT LIKE THE WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY 642 00:37:54,067 --> 00:37:58,967 WAS JUST SNATCHED AWAY FROM ME BECAUSE I GAINED 4 POUNDS. 643 00:37:58,967 --> 00:38:01,267 BUT ONCE I THOUGHT ABOUT IT MORE, 644 00:38:01,267 --> 00:38:04,300 ALTHOUGH I DON'T COMPLETELY AGREE WITH DR. NOWZARADAN, 645 00:38:04,300 --> 00:38:07,133 I DON'T WANT TO LOSE THIS OPPORTUNITY. 646 00:38:07,133 --> 00:38:11,300 SO I'VE DECIDED TO KEEP TRYING AND WORK EVEN HARDER TO DO THIS 647 00:38:11,300 --> 00:38:15,067 BECAUSE I KNOW THIS IS MY LAST CHANCE. 648 00:38:15,067 --> 00:38:17,500 UKIAH HAS BEEN OFFERING TO TAKE WALKS WITH ME 649 00:38:17,500 --> 00:38:19,500 AND HELP ME STAY ON TRACK, 650 00:38:19,500 --> 00:38:22,200 AND I DON'T WANT TO LET HER DOWN. 651 00:38:22,200 --> 00:38:25,500 SO I'M WORKING AS HARD AS I CAN RIGHT NOW, 652 00:38:25,500 --> 00:38:27,100 BUT EVERY DAY IS DIFFERENT. 653 00:38:27,100 --> 00:38:29,767 THE PURPOSE OF THIS PARK IS THEY HAVE SEATS, 654 00:38:29,767 --> 00:38:31,067 AND I DON'T SEE ANY. 655 00:38:31,067 --> 00:38:32,833 -YEAH, THEY DO. -WHERE? 656 00:38:32,833 --> 00:38:34,367 RIGHT THERE, RIGHT THERE. 657 00:38:34,367 --> 00:38:36,067 RIGHT THERE, RIGHT THERE, RIGHT THERE. 658 00:38:36,067 --> 00:38:37,400 Ukiah: WHEN MY MOM STARTED THIS PROCESS, 659 00:38:37,400 --> 00:38:40,667 I WAS REALLY EXCITED THAT SHE WOULD LOSE THE WEIGHT. 660 00:38:40,667 --> 00:38:44,833 BUT IT SEEMS LIKE SHE IS JUST MORE STRESSED OUT LATELY. 661 00:38:44,833 --> 00:38:47,067 JUST TRYING TO BREATHE. 662 00:38:51,100 --> 00:38:52,600 I'M JUST OUT OF BREATH. 663 00:38:52,600 --> 00:38:54,200 [ BREATHING HEAVILY ] 664 00:38:54,200 --> 00:38:56,500 YOU SOUND LIKE IT. 665 00:38:56,500 --> 00:38:59,167 Cynthia: UKIAH WAS UPSET WHEN SHE FOUND OUT 666 00:38:59,167 --> 00:39:01,933 I WASN'T HAVING SURGERY. 667 00:39:01,933 --> 00:39:06,367 SO THEY KIND OF GO THROUGH THE ROLLER COASTER WITH ME. 668 00:39:06,367 --> 00:39:08,900 I HAVE TO ACKNOWLEDGE 669 00:39:08,900 --> 00:39:12,467 HOW MUCH OF WHAT I DO AFFECTS THEM. 670 00:39:12,467 --> 00:39:14,800 I ENJOY OUR WALKS TOGETHER. 671 00:39:14,800 --> 00:39:17,067 I KNOW WE CAN'T DO IT ALL THE TIME 672 00:39:17,067 --> 00:39:18,700 'CAUSE YOU HAVE DANCE AND CHEER. 673 00:39:18,700 --> 00:39:21,233 YOU CAN STILL DO IT YOURSELF. 674 00:39:23,500 --> 00:39:25,433 I'M LOOKING FORWARD TO GO ON WALKS 675 00:39:25,433 --> 00:39:28,233 A LOT MORE THAN WE ARE NOW. 676 00:39:28,233 --> 00:39:30,167 YOU KNOW PART OF THE REASON I'M DOING ALL THIS 677 00:39:30,167 --> 00:39:31,933 IS FOR YOU AND ROBERT AND JEFFREY 678 00:39:31,933 --> 00:39:34,367 AND JORDAN AND SHAQUILLE. YEAH. 679 00:39:34,367 --> 00:39:38,067 SO THAT'S WHY I DEPEND ON YOU TO PUSH ME. 680 00:39:38,067 --> 00:39:39,600 SOMETHING THAT WE'RE ALL LOOKING FORWARD TO 681 00:39:39,600 --> 00:39:41,200 IS TEACHING YOU DANCES. 682 00:39:41,200 --> 00:39:43,233 [ BOTH LAUGH ] 683 00:39:46,267 --> 00:39:49,967 Cynthia: IN A LOT OF WAYS, I GAVE UP MY LIFE FOR MY KIDS. 684 00:39:49,967 --> 00:39:54,667 BUT RIGHT NOW THEY'RE THE ONES GIVING ME MY LIFE BACK. 685 00:39:54,667 --> 00:39:56,567 CAN I HAVE A PIGGYBACK RIDE? 686 00:40:00,867 --> 00:40:05,333 I'M GOING TO DO THIS, AND I'M GOING TO SUCCEED FOR THEM. 687 00:40:05,333 --> 00:40:09,333 WHETHER I HAVE TO LOSE ANOTHER 30 POUNDS OR 50 POUNDS, 688 00:40:09,333 --> 00:40:11,567 WHATEVER THE GOAL IS, 689 00:40:11,567 --> 00:40:14,400 IF IT'S POSSIBLE FOR ME TO DO IT, I'LL DO IT. 690 00:40:22,300 --> 00:40:24,033 WHAT YOU GONNA EAT? 691 00:40:24,033 --> 00:40:25,867 -WE COULD MAKE A WRAP. -A WRAP? 692 00:40:25,867 --> 00:40:28,500 OH, 'CAUSE WE GOT THAT LETTUCE, TOO. 693 00:40:28,500 --> 00:40:31,867 MY LITTLE COUSIN, T.T., IS STAYING WITH US. 694 00:40:31,867 --> 00:40:34,133 AND SHE ACTUALLY CALLED ME ONE DAY OUT THE BLUE 695 00:40:34,133 --> 00:40:37,100 AND SAID THAT I HAD ALWAYS BEEN THERE FOR HER, 696 00:40:37,100 --> 00:40:39,900 AND SHE STRONGLY FELT LIKE SHE WANTED 697 00:40:39,900 --> 00:40:42,467 TO COME HELP ME THROUGH THIS JOURNEY. 698 00:40:42,467 --> 00:40:44,500 -YOU WANT SOME RED ONIONS? -OH, YES. 699 00:40:44,500 --> 00:40:45,633 CUCUMBERS? 700 00:40:45,633 --> 00:40:47,467 T.T. IS A VERY POSITIVE PERSON, 701 00:40:47,467 --> 00:40:51,933 AND SHE TRIES TO KEEP ME ACCOUNTABLE IN MY DIET. 702 00:40:51,933 --> 00:40:54,900 T.T.: CYNTHIA MEANS THE WORLD TO OUR FAMILY, 703 00:40:54,900 --> 00:40:58,600 AND MY GOAL IS TO DO ANYTHING AND EVERYTHING THAT I CAN 704 00:40:58,600 --> 00:41:02,100 TO HELP HER AND THE KIDS WITH THIS WEIGHT-LOSS JOURNEY. 705 00:41:02,100 --> 00:41:04,900 THAT'S WHAT FAMILY'S FOR. 706 00:41:07,300 --> 00:41:09,067 Cynthia: IT'S BEEN SO ENCOURAGING 707 00:41:09,067 --> 00:41:13,533 HAVING EVERYONE SUPPORTING ME AND BEING THERE FOR ME. 708 00:41:13,533 --> 00:41:15,367 THE TURKEY BREAST IS 70 CALORIES. 709 00:41:15,367 --> 00:41:17,500 THE CHEESE IS 70 CALORIES. 710 00:41:17,500 --> 00:41:19,067 AND THE RANCH IS 70 CALORIES. 711 00:41:19,067 --> 00:41:20,667 WHERE ARE YOU FOR TODAY? 712 00:41:20,667 --> 00:41:24,833 LIKE, I STILL HAVE 369. 713 00:41:24,833 --> 00:41:28,867 I KNOW I'M MAKING PROGRESS, AND I'M WORKING HARD. 714 00:41:28,867 --> 00:41:32,200 BUT WHEN IT CAME TIME FOR MY DOCTOR'S VISIT LAST MONTH, 715 00:41:32,200 --> 00:41:35,067 I WA SO SCARED, I SKIPPED IT. 716 00:41:37,600 --> 00:41:39,500 I'M GOING TO SEE HIM AGAIN IN A WEEK, 717 00:41:39,500 --> 00:41:43,267 AND I'M REALLY NERVOUS. 718 00:41:43,267 --> 00:41:45,500 NOW I REALIZE THERE IS TOO MUCH AT STAKE 719 00:41:45,500 --> 00:41:48,433 FOR ME TO START BACKSLIDING. 720 00:41:51,167 --> 00:41:53,467 SO, Y'ALL BEEN OUTSIDE ALL DAY, RIGHT? 721 00:41:53,467 --> 00:41:54,867 YEP! 722 00:41:54,867 --> 00:41:59,267 NOTHING MOTIVATES ME MORE THAN SEEING MY KIDS HAPPY. 723 00:41:59,267 --> 00:42:01,300 I DON'T WANT TO LET MYSELF DOWN. 724 00:42:01,300 --> 00:42:04,067 I DON'T WANT TO LET MY FAMILY DOWN. 725 00:42:04,067 --> 00:42:06,300 SO I'M DOING THIS. 726 00:42:17,367 --> 00:42:19,867 I'M AT THE DOCTOR FOR MY FOURTH APPOINTMENT, 727 00:42:19,867 --> 00:42:21,767 AND I'M HOPING TO FINALLY GET APPROVED 728 00:42:21,767 --> 00:42:23,900 FOR WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY. 729 00:42:23,900 --> 00:42:25,933 CYNTHIA WELLS. 730 00:42:25,933 --> 00:42:30,567 HE SET A GOAL OF LOSING 30 POUNDS IN A MONTH. 731 00:42:30,567 --> 00:42:32,533 I MISSED MY APPOINTMENT LAST MONTH, 732 00:42:32,533 --> 00:42:34,867 SO I DON'T KNOW IF THAT MEANS 733 00:42:34,867 --> 00:42:38,433 HE'S GOING TO WANT ME TO HAVE LOST 60 POUNDS. 734 00:42:38,433 --> 00:42:41,833 SO I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT TO EXPECT RIGHT NOW. 735 00:42:47,267 --> 00:42:49,500 ** 736 00:42:56,533 --> 00:43:00,267 Cynthia: I'M REALLY NERVOUS TO FIND OUT WHAT MY PROGRESS IS. 737 00:43:00,267 --> 00:43:04,933 THE DOCTOR WANTED ME TO LOSE 30 POUNDS A MONTH. 738 00:43:04,933 --> 00:43:06,567 BUT IT'S BEEN TWO MONTHS, 739 00:43:06,567 --> 00:43:11,267 SO I DON'T REALLY KNOW WHAT HE EXPECTS FROM ME TODAY. 740 00:43:11,267 --> 00:43:16,233 ALL I KNOW IS I'VE WORKED HARDER THAN I EVER HAVE TO DO THIS. 741 00:43:16,233 --> 00:43:18,767 Woman: 533. 742 00:43:24,667 --> 00:43:26,667 I'M FEELING PRETTY GOOD. 743 00:43:26,667 --> 00:43:28,333 I KNEW I WAS WORKING HARD, 744 00:43:28,333 --> 00:43:33,100 BUT TO SEE HOW MUCH I LOST IS AMAZING. 745 00:43:33,100 --> 00:43:35,600 I JUST REALLY HOPE THIS PROVES TO DR. NOW 746 00:43:35,600 --> 00:43:38,767 I'M READY FOR THE SURGERY. 747 00:43:38,767 --> 00:43:41,200 -HELLO. -HOW YOU DOING? 748 00:43:41,200 --> 00:43:43,167 -YOU DOING OKAY? -YEAH. HOW YOU DOING? 749 00:43:43,167 --> 00:43:44,833 I'M DOING ALL RIGHT. 750 00:43:44,833 --> 00:43:48,967 I SEE THAT YOU'RE DOWN TO 534 POUNDS, 751 00:43:48,967 --> 00:43:53,633 SO TOTAL WEIGHT LOSS FROM DAY ONE -- 77 POUNDS. 752 00:43:53,633 --> 00:43:55,767 THAT'S A VERY GOOD TURNAROUND. 753 00:43:55,767 --> 00:43:57,700 DO YOU FEEL ANY BETTER YOU LOST WEIGHT? 754 00:43:57,700 --> 00:43:59,833 -OH, YEAH. -HOW'S YOUR ACTIVITY? 755 00:43:59,833 --> 00:44:02,567 I'M GETTING AROUND THE BUILDING MORE AT WORK. 756 00:44:02,567 --> 00:44:06,067 I KNEW WHAT YOU WANTED ME TO DO, AND SO I NEEDED TO PROVE TO YOU 757 00:44:06,067 --> 00:44:09,067 THAT I KNEW WHAT I WAS SUPPOSED TO DO 758 00:44:09,067 --> 00:44:11,067 AND THAT I COULD GET BACK ON TRACK. 759 00:44:11,067 --> 00:44:13,100 WELL, I'M PROUD OF YOU. 760 00:44:13,100 --> 00:44:15,600 Dr. Nowzaradan: I WAS REALLY CONCERNED ABOUT CYNTHIA. 761 00:44:15,600 --> 00:44:17,767 NOT ONLY DID SHE START TO GAIN WEIGHT, 762 00:44:17,767 --> 00:44:20,467 BUT SHE MISSED HER APPOINTMENT LAST MONTH. 763 00:44:20,467 --> 00:44:22,067 AT THAT POINT, I WASN'T SURE 764 00:44:22,067 --> 00:44:24,400 THAT I WAS GOING TO SEE HER EVER AGAIN. 765 00:44:24,400 --> 00:44:25,867 BUT SHE'S HERE TODAY, 766 00:44:25,867 --> 00:44:28,767 AND SHE'S MADE SOME REALLY GOOD PROGRESS. 767 00:44:28,767 --> 00:44:33,200 THIS IS A REALLY NICE SURPRISE, AND I'M VERY ENCOURAGED. 768 00:44:33,200 --> 00:44:37,200 I CONGRATULATE YOU FOR GETTING ON THE PROGRAM. 769 00:44:37,200 --> 00:44:40,067 YOU'RE MAKING GOOD PROGRESS, AND I THINK YOU'RE GONNA BE 770 00:44:40,067 --> 00:44:43,333 A CANDIDATE FOR WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY, OKAY? 771 00:44:43,333 --> 00:44:46,800 BUT YOU STILL HAVE A BMI CLOSE TO 100. 772 00:44:46,800 --> 00:44:50,633 AND THAT'S VERY RISKY FOR PUTTING SOMEBODY ASLEEP 773 00:44:50,633 --> 00:44:52,933 AND DOING WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY. 774 00:44:52,933 --> 00:44:55,200 SO I'M GONNA SEND YOU TO THE HOSPITAL 775 00:44:55,200 --> 00:44:57,300 SO WE CAN RUN SOME TESTS ON YOU, 776 00:44:57,300 --> 00:45:00,167 MAKE SURE YOU ARE SAFE FOR ANESTHESIA. 777 00:45:00,167 --> 00:45:04,067 IF ALL THOSE TESTS ARE GOOD, I'LL APPROVE YOU FOR SURGERY. 778 00:45:04,067 --> 00:45:05,133 OH. 779 00:45:05,133 --> 00:45:06,967 I WANT YOU TO MAKE EFFORT 780 00:45:06,967 --> 00:45:10,800 TO LOSE ALL THE WEIGHT THAT YOU CAN PRIOR TO SURGERY, 781 00:45:10,800 --> 00:45:14,967 AND THAT'S GONNA DECREASE THE CHANCES OF COMPLICATION. 782 00:45:14,967 --> 00:45:16,100 -OKAY? -OKAY. 783 00:45:16,100 --> 00:45:17,633 ALL RIGHT, I'LL SEE YOU AGAIN, OKAY? 784 00:45:17,633 --> 00:45:20,567 -ALL RIGHT. -ALL RIGHT. SUPER. 785 00:45:20,567 --> 00:45:23,733 [ Ringing ] 786 00:45:23,733 --> 00:45:25,500 Cynthia: MY KIDS ARE GONNA BE SUPER-EXCITED 787 00:45:25,500 --> 00:45:27,433 'CAUSE WHEN I LEAVE EVERY TIME, 788 00:45:27,433 --> 00:45:30,067 THEY'RE SITTING BY THE PHONE WAITING TO HEAR. 789 00:45:30,067 --> 00:45:31,800 -Ukiah: Mama! -HEY. 790 00:45:31,800 --> 00:45:34,767 SO, I HAVE TO GET A FEW MORE TESTS DONE, 791 00:45:34,767 --> 00:45:37,233 BUT I SHOULD BE APPROVED FOR SURGERY. 792 00:45:37,233 --> 00:45:42,400 [ Cheering ] 793 00:45:42,400 --> 00:45:45,767 -THANK YOU, KIAH. -Bye! Love you! 794 00:45:45,767 --> 00:45:48,400 BYE. LOVE YOU, TOO. 795 00:45:51,267 --> 00:45:53,600 I'M REALLY PROUD OF MYSELF. 796 00:45:53,600 --> 00:45:56,567 AND I'M GLAD THAT I DIDN'T LET THE DISCOURAGEMENT 797 00:45:56,567 --> 00:45:59,067 OF NOT QUALIFYING THE FIRST COUPLE OF TIMES 798 00:45:59,067 --> 00:46:00,967 KEEP ME FROM DOING THIS. 799 00:46:04,967 --> 00:46:08,333 I HAD WANTED TO GIVE UP AFTER THAT LAST DOCTOR VISIT, 800 00:46:08,333 --> 00:46:10,367 BUT MY FAMILY KEPT ME GOING. 801 00:46:10,367 --> 00:46:14,433 AND NOW TO SEE IT ALL PAYING OFF IS AN INCREDIBLE FEELING. 802 00:46:28,067 --> 00:46:31,700 I NEVER HAD AN ENDOSCOPY BEFORE. 803 00:46:31,700 --> 00:46:34,433 KIND OF NERVOUS 'CAUSE I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO EXPECT. 804 00:46:34,433 --> 00:46:36,933 I KNOW DR. NOW IS LOOKING TO MAKE SURE 805 00:46:36,933 --> 00:46:41,100 THAT MY STOMACH IS SAFE AND EVERYTHING IS OKAY. 806 00:46:41,100 --> 00:46:44,067 OKAY. 807 00:46:44,067 --> 00:46:45,867 AS BAD AS I WANT THIS SURGERY, 808 00:46:45,867 --> 00:46:50,900 I DEFINITELY DON'T WANT TO DO IT IF MY BODY CAN'T HANDLE IT. 809 00:46:50,900 --> 00:46:52,400 -GOOD MORNING. -GOOD MORNING. 810 00:46:52,400 --> 00:46:54,333 -HOW YOU DOING TODAY? -GOOD. 811 00:46:54,333 --> 00:46:56,667 ALL RIGHT, SO, WE'RE GONNA GO AHEAD 812 00:46:56,667 --> 00:46:58,600 AND GIVE YOU A LITTLE MEDICATION. 813 00:46:58,600 --> 00:47:01,800 AND I PUT THE SCOPE DOWN THERE AND LOOK INSIDE THE STOMACH. 814 00:47:01,800 --> 00:47:03,100 OKAY. 815 00:47:03,100 --> 00:47:04,667 ALL RIGHT, WE'LL GET YOU STARTED IN A FEW MINUTES. 816 00:47:04,667 --> 00:47:07,933 Dr. Nowzaradan: THE ENDOSCOPY BEFORE WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY 817 00:47:07,933 --> 00:47:11,067 IS A SIMPLE PROCEDURE WE DO, MAKE SURE EVERYTHING'S OKAY, 818 00:47:11,067 --> 00:47:12,667 THERE IS NO POLYP OR TUMOR 819 00:47:12,667 --> 00:47:14,633 IN THE STOMACH THAT'S GONNA PREVENT US 820 00:47:14,633 --> 00:47:16,967 FROM DOING THE WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY. 821 00:47:19,200 --> 00:47:21,300 Woman: I WANT YOU TO TAKE SOME BIG, DEEP BREATHS 822 00:47:21,300 --> 00:47:24,100 THROUGH YOUR NOSE FOR ME, OKAY? 823 00:47:24,100 --> 00:47:26,900 Dr. Nowzaradan: CYNTHIA HAS MADE GOOD PROGRESS. 824 00:47:26,900 --> 00:47:31,700 I AM PROUD OF HER, BUT SHE STILL HAS A BMI OF OVER 100. 825 00:47:31,700 --> 00:47:35,633 SO THIS IS STILL GOING TO BE A VERY RISKY SURGERY. 826 00:47:35,633 --> 00:47:39,533 SO WE HAVE TO MAKE SURE THERE ARE NO ISSUES WITH CYNTHIA 827 00:47:39,533 --> 00:47:43,367 THAT WOULD PUT HER IN A LIFE-THREATENING SITUATION. 828 00:47:46,900 --> 00:47:49,500 I'M GONNA LOOK AT THE UPPER PART OF THE INTESTINE, 829 00:47:49,500 --> 00:47:52,067 MAKE SURE EVERYTHING IS OKAY. 830 00:47:55,067 --> 00:47:58,067 ALL RIGHT. EVERYTHING LOOKS OKAY. 831 00:47:58,067 --> 00:48:01,633 CYNTHIA GOT NORMAL STOMACH, NORMAL ESOPHAGUS, 832 00:48:01,633 --> 00:48:04,667 SO IT'S GONNA BE GOOD FOR DOING WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY. 833 00:48:04,667 --> 00:48:08,267 Woman: YOU'RE ALL DONE, SWEETHEART, OKAY? YOU DID GREAT. 834 00:48:08,267 --> 00:48:11,467 THE ONLY THING IS THAT SHE HAS VERY HIGH BMI, 835 00:48:11,467 --> 00:48:14,067 SO HER TOLERANCE FOR THE ANESTHESIA 836 00:48:14,067 --> 00:48:16,100 IS NOT VERY GOOD. 837 00:48:16,100 --> 00:48:18,833 SO, SLEEVE GASTRECTOMY IS THE BEST OPTION 838 00:48:18,833 --> 00:48:21,100 FOR CYNTHIA'S WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY 839 00:48:21,100 --> 00:48:27,333 BECAUSE IT IS A MUCH FASTER PROCEDURE THAN A FULL BYPASS. 840 00:48:27,333 --> 00:48:29,367 HI, CYNTHIA. HOW DO YOU FEEL? 841 00:48:29,367 --> 00:48:32,433 -GOOD. -YOUR ENDOSCOPY LOOKS VERY GOOD. 842 00:48:32,433 --> 00:48:34,067 -EVERYTHING LOOKED NORMAL. -OKAY. 843 00:48:34,067 --> 00:48:36,800 SO I'M GOING TO GO AHEAD AND APPROVE YOU FOR SURGERY 844 00:48:36,800 --> 00:48:38,767 AND PUT YOU IN THE SCHEDULE FOR NEXT MONTH. 845 00:48:38,767 --> 00:48:41,233 -OKAY. -I KNOW YOU NEED TO GO BACK 846 00:48:41,233 --> 00:48:43,300 AND GET TIME OFF OF WORK. 847 00:48:43,300 --> 00:48:46,233 SO UNTIL THEN, KEEP MAKING PROGRESS. 848 00:48:46,233 --> 00:48:49,867 IF YOU SHOW UP FOR SURGERY AND HAVEN'T MADE GOOD PROGRESS, 849 00:48:49,867 --> 00:48:52,267 I'M NOT GOING TO MOVE AHEAD WITH YOUR SURGERY. 850 00:48:52,267 --> 00:48:54,267 -OKAY. -YOU'VE DONE WELL. 851 00:48:54,267 --> 00:48:56,967 KEEP UP THE GOOD WORK. ALL RIGHT. I'LL SEE YOU LATER. 852 00:48:56,967 --> 00:48:59,067 OKAY. 853 00:49:01,800 --> 00:49:04,467 Cynthia: I'M SO EXCITED RIGHT NOW. 854 00:49:04,467 --> 00:49:06,533 THIS WAS THE LAST STEP, AND A PART OF ME 855 00:49:06,533 --> 00:49:08,600 FELT LIKE THEY WERE GONNA FIND SOMETHING 856 00:49:08,600 --> 00:49:11,067 TO SABOTAGE MY SURGERY. 857 00:49:11,067 --> 00:49:12,800 BUT I CAN'T WAIT TO GET HOME 858 00:49:12,800 --> 00:49:15,167 AND SEE THE LOOKS ON MY KIDS' FACES 859 00:49:15,167 --> 00:49:18,533 WHEN I TELL THEM I'M FINALLY GETTING SURGERY. 860 00:49:28,400 --> 00:49:31,100 -IS THIS ONE ME? -OH, YEAH, THE LITTLE ONE. 861 00:49:31,100 --> 00:49:33,467 -THAT'S YOU. -THIS IS ME. 862 00:49:33,467 --> 00:49:35,500 -THAT'S JORDAN. -THAT'S ROBERT. 863 00:49:35,500 --> 00:49:40,800 THAT'S ME, THAT'S JEFFREY, AND THAT'S MAMA IN THE MIDDLE. 864 00:49:40,800 --> 00:49:44,867 IT TAKES A STRONG MAN TO GET THAT UP THERE. 865 00:49:44,867 --> 00:49:47,667 SO, BEFORE YOU LEAVE IN THE MORNING, 866 00:49:47,667 --> 00:49:50,567 DON'T FORGET TO GET YOUR TOOTHBRUSH. 867 00:49:50,567 --> 00:49:53,933 Cynthia: TOMORROW I LEAVE FOR HOUSTON TO GET MY WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY. 868 00:49:53,933 --> 00:49:56,267 AND I'M SAD TO BE LEAVING THE KIDS. 869 00:49:58,700 --> 00:50:01,067 I KNOW THIS IS HIGH-RISK SURGERY 870 00:50:01,067 --> 00:50:05,500 AND THAT IT'S POSSIBLE I MIGHT NOT MAKE IT THROUGH. 871 00:50:05,500 --> 00:50:09,333 BUT I'M DOING THIS FOR THEM SO WE CAN HAVE A LIFE TOGETHER. 872 00:50:09,333 --> 00:50:11,133 TEAMWORK MAKES THE DREAM WORK. 873 00:50:11,133 --> 00:50:15,967 I CAN'T DO -- [ LAUGHS ] 874 00:50:15,967 --> 00:50:18,133 I KNOW THEIR UNCLE WILL TAKE GOOD CARE OF THEM, 875 00:50:18,133 --> 00:50:20,000 BUT WHEN WE'RE NOT ALL TOGETHER, 876 00:50:20,000 --> 00:50:23,500 IT FEELS LIKE A PART OF ME IS MISSING. 877 00:50:23,500 --> 00:50:25,900 -HEY, ROBERT AND JORDAN! -YES, MA'AM. 878 00:50:25,900 --> 00:50:28,100 CAN Y'ALL CUT THE GAME FOR LIKE FIVE MINUTES 879 00:50:28,100 --> 00:50:30,500 SO WE CAN HAVE A POWWOW? 880 00:50:35,400 --> 00:50:36,767 HEY, SO, LISTEN. 881 00:50:36,767 --> 00:50:39,600 I'M LEAVING SOMETIME TOMORROW. 882 00:50:39,600 --> 00:50:41,633 UNCLE JEFF -- HE SHOULD BE HERE, 883 00:50:41,633 --> 00:50:44,067 HOPEFULLY, BEFORE Y'ALL GET OUT OF SCHOOL TOMORROW. 884 00:50:44,067 --> 00:50:45,833 HOW LONG ARE YOU GONNA BE IN HOUSTON? 885 00:50:45,833 --> 00:50:48,967 AT LEAST TWO WEEKS OR MORE 886 00:50:48,967 --> 00:50:51,000 BECAUSE I HAVE SURGERY ON MONDAY, 887 00:50:51,000 --> 00:50:53,467 AND I HAVE A FOLLOW-UP A WEEK LATER. 888 00:50:53,467 --> 00:50:54,900 I DON'T KNOW AFTER THAT. 889 00:50:54,900 --> 00:50:56,533 WHO'S GONNA SLEEP IN YOUR ROOM? 890 00:50:56,533 --> 00:50:57,867 Jordan: OH, MY GOD. 891 00:50:57,867 --> 00:50:59,500 ROBERT, YOU WANT TO SLEEP IN MY ROOM? 892 00:50:59,500 --> 00:51:01,233 -YES, I DO. -NO! 893 00:51:01,233 --> 00:51:03,433 -Y'ALL CAN ALL SLEEP IN MY ROOM. -YAY. 894 00:51:03,433 --> 00:51:06,167 SLUMBER PARTY IN MOMMY'S ROOM TOMORROW NIGHT! 895 00:51:06,167 --> 00:51:07,700 WHAT ARE MY EXPECTATIONS? 896 00:51:07,700 --> 00:51:10,400 NO DISRESPECT, BE GOOD, MAKE GOOD GRADES. 897 00:51:10,400 --> 00:51:11,567 HAVE ANY QUESTIONS? 898 00:51:11,567 --> 00:51:13,967 WHAT IS THE SURGERY, AND WHAT DO IT DO? 899 00:51:13,967 --> 00:51:16,533 THEY'RE GONNA CUT MY STOMACH 900 00:51:16,533 --> 00:51:19,400 DOWN TO THE SIZE OF A LEMON. 901 00:51:19,400 --> 00:51:22,067 I'LL SHOW YOU THE VIDEO. 902 00:51:22,067 --> 00:51:24,200 Ukiah: I LOVE MY MOM A LOT. 903 00:51:24,200 --> 00:51:27,733 AND I AM KIND OF WORRIED ABOUT MY MOM HAVING SURGERY 904 00:51:27,733 --> 00:51:30,100 BECAUSE I THINK IT'S KIND OF SCARY. 905 00:51:30,100 --> 00:51:32,567 BUT I'M VERY EXCITED FOR HER AT THE SAME TIME. 906 00:51:32,567 --> 00:51:34,467 OKAY. HERE WE GO. 907 00:51:34,467 --> 00:51:36,900 OH, THAT'S NASTY. I DON'T WANT TO WATCH IT. 908 00:51:36,900 --> 00:51:39,800 THIS IS HOW THEY DO THE SURGERY. 909 00:51:39,800 --> 00:51:41,367 THIS IS YOUR STOMACH RIGHT HERE, 910 00:51:41,367 --> 00:51:43,633 JUST THIS LITTLE -- WHERE YOU SEE THAT BLUE. 911 00:51:43,633 --> 00:51:45,067 THAT'S WHAT THEY CUT. 912 00:51:45,067 --> 00:51:48,400 THAT'S YOUR INTESTINES. 913 00:51:48,400 --> 00:51:50,467 Cynthia: IT'S IMPORTANT TO ME THAT MY KIDS UNDERSTAND 914 00:51:50,467 --> 00:51:52,133 WHAT'S GOING TO HAPPEN 915 00:51:52,133 --> 00:51:57,300 BECAUSE THIS SURGERY IS GOING TO AFFECT ALL OF OUR LIVES. 916 00:51:57,300 --> 00:51:59,533 SINCE THEY CAN'T BE WITH ME IN HOUSTON, 917 00:51:59,533 --> 00:52:01,967 MY NUMBER-ONE PRIORITY BEFORE I LEAVE 918 00:52:01,967 --> 00:52:05,500 IS TO MAKE SURE MY KIDS FEEL OKAY WITH EVERYTHING. 919 00:52:05,500 --> 00:52:08,233 DO Y'ALL UNDERSTAND BETTER NOW THAT YOU SAW THE VIDEO, 920 00:52:08,233 --> 00:52:10,067 -WHAT'S GONNA HAPPEN? -YEAH. 921 00:52:10,067 --> 00:52:11,667 SO, LIKE, HOW DO YOU FEEL? 922 00:52:11,667 --> 00:52:14,200 -I FEEL EXCITED. -BECAUSE? 923 00:52:14,200 --> 00:52:19,067 BECAUSE THIS IS GONNA CHANGE YOUR LIFE 924 00:52:19,067 --> 00:52:20,733 AND OUR LIVES, TOO. 925 00:52:20,733 --> 00:52:23,467 I'M EXCITED 'CAUSE YOU'LL BE ABLE TO DO MORE THINGS, 926 00:52:23,467 --> 00:52:26,867 HAVE MORE OPPORTUNITIES THAN WHAT YOU HAD BEFORE. 927 00:52:26,867 --> 00:52:28,467 JORDAN? 928 00:52:28,467 --> 00:52:30,967 I FEEL NERVOUS 929 00:52:30,967 --> 00:52:36,067 BECAUSE I DON'T WANT THEM TO HURT MY MOTHER 930 00:52:36,067 --> 00:52:38,867 OR DO SOMETHING 931 00:52:38,867 --> 00:52:43,300 THAT CAUSE YOU TO DIE. 932 00:52:43,300 --> 00:52:45,933 WELL, JORDAN, THAT'S WHY I PICKED THIS DOCTOR, 933 00:52:45,933 --> 00:52:49,133 BECAUSE HE'S SUPPOSED TO BE, 934 00:52:49,133 --> 00:52:53,367 LIKE, THE BEST PERSON AT DOING THIS SURGERY. 935 00:52:53,367 --> 00:52:57,767 THAT'S ONE OF THE REASONS WHY I HAVE GONE THROUGH SO MUCH, 936 00:52:57,767 --> 00:53:00,800 BECAUSE I KNOW HOW GOOD HE IS. 937 00:53:00,800 --> 00:53:01,900 OKAY. 938 00:53:01,900 --> 00:53:05,733 YOU FEELING NERVOUS OR SCARED IS NORMAL. 939 00:53:05,733 --> 00:53:07,933 IT'S OKAY. 940 00:53:07,933 --> 00:53:11,067 HOW DO YOU FEEL ABOUT THIS PROCESS? 941 00:53:11,067 --> 00:53:13,400 KIAH, HONESTLY, 942 00:53:13,400 --> 00:53:15,467 RIGHT NOW I DON'T THINK IT'S HITTING ME 943 00:53:15,467 --> 00:53:18,633 THAT IT'S ACTUALLY GONNA HAPPEN. 944 00:53:18,633 --> 00:53:22,533 BUT ONE WAY OR THE OTHER, WE'RE GONNA GET THROUGH THIS. 945 00:53:22,533 --> 00:53:25,900 -RIGHT? -YEAH. 946 00:53:28,500 --> 00:53:30,267 Cynthia: I WANT TO GET THIS SURGERY 947 00:53:30,267 --> 00:53:32,467 SO I CAN START ENJOYING 948 00:53:32,467 --> 00:53:35,667 SOME THINGS THAT I'VE MISSED OUT ON. 949 00:53:35,667 --> 00:53:38,067 BUT ULTIMATELY, MORE THAN ANYTHING, 950 00:53:38,067 --> 00:53:41,600 MY KIDS WILL BENEFIT A LOT. 951 00:53:41,600 --> 00:53:43,067 SO ONCE I'M HEALTHY, 952 00:53:43,067 --> 00:53:47,167 I'M REALLY EXCITED TO SEE HOW FAR THIS FAMILY CAN GO. 953 00:53:47,167 --> 00:53:49,300 I LEAVE FOR HOUSTON TOMORROW. 954 00:53:49,300 --> 00:53:51,900 I'M SCARED, BUT I'M READY. 955 00:53:51,900 --> 00:53:52,433 [ LAUGHTER ] 956 00:54:01,767 --> 00:54:03,967 ** 957 00:54:12,233 --> 00:54:14,200 Cynthia: T.T. AND I ARE STAYING IN HOUSTON 958 00:54:14,200 --> 00:54:16,933 FOR A COUPLE OF WEEKS SO I CAN GET MY SURGERY 959 00:54:16,933 --> 00:54:19,967 AND RECOVER BEFORE I GO BACK TO OKLAHOMA. 960 00:54:22,400 --> 00:54:24,100 SHE'S GONNA HELP TAKE CARE OF ME 961 00:54:24,100 --> 00:54:27,200 UNTIL I CAN RECUPERATE ENOUGH FOR THE DRIVE BACK. 962 00:54:29,800 --> 00:54:32,400 I GOT PRETTY DOUBTFUL THAT THIS DAY WOULD COME, 963 00:54:32,400 --> 00:54:34,133 SO I HAD MY MOMENTS 964 00:54:34,133 --> 00:54:37,833 WHERE THOUGHT THAT THIS WOULD NEVER HAPPEN. 965 00:54:37,833 --> 00:54:39,200 BUT IT'S REALLY HARD 966 00:54:39,200 --> 00:54:42,467 BECAUSE I'VE NEVER BEEN AWAY FROM MY KIDS THIS LONG. 967 00:54:42,467 --> 00:54:44,700 AND I'M ALREADY MISSING THEM A LOT. 968 00:54:47,167 --> 00:54:49,067 I'M SCARED ABOUT SURGERY, 969 00:54:49,067 --> 00:54:52,567 AND SO MANY THINGS KEEP RUNNING THROUGH MY MIND. 970 00:54:52,567 --> 00:54:54,767 WHAT IF SOMETHING GOES WRONG? 971 00:54:54,767 --> 00:54:57,667 WHAT IF I'M NOT ABLE TO SEE THEM AGAIN? 972 00:54:57,667 --> 00:54:59,867 I WISH THE KIDS COULD HAVE BEEN HERE. 973 00:54:59,867 --> 00:55:02,667 KIAH COULD HAVE BEEN DOING THIS. 974 00:55:02,667 --> 00:55:06,233 I COULD'VE BEEN ASLEEP. [ LAUGHS ] 975 00:55:06,233 --> 00:55:08,733 I GUESS I'M JUST TRYING TO KEEP MY MIND OFF IT, 976 00:55:08,733 --> 00:55:11,400 SO I'M KIND OF THINKING ABOUT WHAT MY KIDS ARE DOING, 977 00:55:11,400 --> 00:55:13,567 YOU KNOW, GETTING READY FOR SCHOOL. 978 00:55:13,567 --> 00:55:16,633 BUT I DO WISH MY KIDS COULD BE HERE. 979 00:55:16,633 --> 00:55:19,900 [ KNOCK ON DOOR ] 980 00:55:19,900 --> 00:55:22,467 -AUNTIE! -WHAT ARE YOU DOING HERE? 981 00:55:22,467 --> 00:55:25,267 HI, AUNTIE! 982 00:55:25,267 --> 00:55:26,833 HEY. WHAT Y'ALL DOING HERE? 983 00:55:26,833 --> 00:55:30,433 OH, MY GOD. OH, MY GOD. 984 00:55:30,433 --> 00:55:32,500 [ LAUGHTER ] 985 00:55:32,500 --> 00:55:34,867 Cynthia: I CAN'T BELIEVE THE KIDS SHOWED UP THIS MORNING. 986 00:55:34,867 --> 00:55:37,767 KNOWING THAT THEY'RE HERE GIVES ME A LOT OF STRENGTH. 987 00:55:37,767 --> 00:55:41,067 AM I GONNA GET MY LOVE, LITTLE BOY? 988 00:55:41,067 --> 00:55:43,333 I FEEL PRETTY COMPLETE NOW. 989 00:55:43,333 --> 00:55:46,633 THEY WERE THE MISSING PART TO THIS WHOLE PUZZLE. 990 00:55:46,633 --> 00:55:48,733 WHAT TIME Y'ALL LEAVE THIS MORNING? 991 00:55:48,733 --> 00:55:51,100 -8:30 OR 9:00. -REALLY? 992 00:55:51,100 --> 00:55:53,167 I THINK IT'S VERY IMPORTANT FOR HER TO KNOW 993 00:55:53,167 --> 00:55:56,633 THAT WE'RE WITH HER EVERY STEP OF THE WAY. 994 00:55:56,633 --> 00:55:58,700 IT MEANS A LOT TO ME TO BE HERE FOR HER SURGERY. 995 00:55:58,700 --> 00:56:00,833 THAT WAY, I CAN KNOW IF SHE'S OKAY OR NOT, 996 00:56:00,833 --> 00:56:02,067 'CAUSE IF I WAS IN OKLAHOMA, 997 00:56:02,067 --> 00:56:04,200 I WOULDN'T KNOW WHAT WAS GOING ON. 998 00:56:07,067 --> 00:56:09,233 Cynthia: THEY'VE BEEN AS BIG A PART OF THIS AS ANYBODY, 999 00:56:09,233 --> 00:56:12,667 SO KNOWING THAT THEY'RE HERE, 1000 00:56:12,667 --> 00:56:15,500 I CAN KIND OF FOCUS ON MY SURGERY 1001 00:56:15,500 --> 00:56:18,200 AND THAT THEY'LL KNOW THAT I'LL BE OKAY. 1002 00:56:19,667 --> 00:56:21,300 T.T.: YOU WANT TO GO TO THE RIGHT 1003 00:56:21,300 --> 00:56:23,533 SO THAT YOU CAN JUST PULL IN TO GO TO THE VALET. 1004 00:56:26,133 --> 00:56:29,367 GOING THROUGH THIS TODAY WITHOUT THEM BEING HERE WITH ME 1005 00:56:29,367 --> 00:56:32,300 WOULD HAVE BEEN A LOT HARDER THAN I'D LIKE TO ADMIT. 1006 00:56:32,300 --> 00:56:34,133 WE'RE NEVER, EVER COMING BACK IN HERE. 1007 00:56:37,600 --> 00:56:39,967 BUT THEY'RE HERE RIGHT NOW, AND I'M SO EXCITED. 1008 00:56:39,967 --> 00:56:41,433 AND I'M READY FOR ANYTHING 1009 00:56:41,433 --> 00:56:44,633 BECAUSE I HAVE MY FAMILY RIGHT HERE BESIDE ME. 1010 00:56:47,500 --> 00:56:49,967 LOVE YOU, TOO. 1011 00:56:49,967 --> 00:56:52,433 I'M SO GLAD THIS DAY HAS FINALLY COME. 1012 00:56:52,433 --> 00:56:54,967 ALL RIGHT. 1013 00:56:59,067 --> 00:57:01,433 Woman: HI! 1014 00:57:01,433 --> 00:57:04,233 Cynthia: I KNOW THIS IS GONNA BE ONE OF THE MOST SIGNIFICANT 1015 00:57:04,233 --> 00:57:06,367 TURNING POINTS IN MY LIFE. 1016 00:57:06,367 --> 00:57:08,733 -HEY, BABY. -HI. 1017 00:57:11,533 --> 00:57:14,433 EVEN THOUGH I'M HIGH-RISK GOING INTO SURGERY, 1018 00:57:14,433 --> 00:57:18,300 RIGHT NOW I FEEL LIKE EVERYTHING IS GONNA BE ALL RIGHT, 1019 00:57:18,300 --> 00:57:21,633 AND THIS IS THE FIRST BIG STEP TO MY RECOVERY. 1020 00:57:24,200 --> 00:57:25,733 -KINDA -WELL, TALK TO ME. 1021 00:57:25,733 --> 00:57:27,567 WHAT'S WRONG? 1022 00:57:27,567 --> 00:57:31,067 I CAN TELL. TALK TO ME. 1023 00:57:31,067 --> 00:57:32,567 -WHAT? -I'M GOOD. 1024 00:57:32,567 --> 00:57:35,133 YOU'RE NOT. WHAT'S WRONG? 1025 00:57:38,400 --> 00:57:43,567 Cynthia: BEING HERE RIGHT NOW AND SEEING UKIAH GET EMOTIONAL, 1026 00:57:43,567 --> 00:57:45,433 IT'S HARD NOT TO BE OVERCOME 1027 00:57:45,433 --> 00:57:49,300 WITH A LITTLE BIT OF FEAR OF SOMETHING GOING WRONG. 1028 00:57:49,300 --> 00:57:51,467 ROBERT, COME HERE. 1029 00:58:01,600 --> 00:58:03,867 FOR REAL. 1030 00:58:06,467 --> 00:58:07,700 I LOVE Y'ALL. 1031 00:58:07,700 --> 00:58:10,800 -WE LOVE YOU, TOO. -LOVE YOU, TOO. 1032 00:58:10,800 --> 00:58:12,333 Cynthia: WHEN YOU HAVE KIDS, 1033 00:58:12,333 --> 00:58:15,933 THE BIGGEST FEAR YOU HAVE IS LEAVING THEM. 1034 00:58:15,933 --> 00:58:18,833 BUT I KNOW THEY WILL 100% LOSE ME 1035 00:58:18,833 --> 00:58:22,067 IF I DON'T GO THROUGH WITH THIS TODAY. 1036 00:58:22,067 --> 00:58:24,867 [ SIGHS ] 1037 00:58:24,867 --> 00:58:27,100 I'M TERRIFIED OF LEAVING THEM. 1038 00:58:27,100 --> 00:58:29,267 THREE OF THEM HAVE ALREADY LOST ONE MOTHER. 1039 00:58:29,267 --> 00:58:32,067 SO THIS SURGERY IS MY GREATEST CHANCE 1040 00:58:32,067 --> 00:58:34,400 FOR A FUTURE WITH MY CHILDREN. 1041 00:58:37,733 --> 00:58:41,600 Dr. Nowzaradan: TODAY, WE'RE DOING WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY ON CYNTHIA. 1042 00:58:41,600 --> 00:58:43,500 SHE HAS LOST A LOT OF WEIGHT, 1043 00:58:43,500 --> 00:58:48,500 BUT SHE STILL HAS AN EXTREMELY HIGH BMI OVER 100, 1044 00:58:48,500 --> 00:58:52,767 WHICH MAKES HER VERY HIGH-RISK FOR SURGERY. 1045 00:58:52,767 --> 00:58:55,967 ONE SMALL THING CAN PUSH HER BODY OVER THE LIMIT, 1046 00:58:55,967 --> 00:58:58,267 SO WE HAVE TO BE VERY CAREFUL 1047 00:58:58,267 --> 00:59:02,167 TO AVOID ANYTHING THAT WOULD CAUSE A FATAL SCENARIO 1048 00:59:02,167 --> 00:59:05,500 WHERE CYNTHIA WOULD NOT SURVIVE THIS SURGERY. 1049 00:59:15,067 --> 00:59:17,433 ** 1050 00:59:24,433 --> 00:59:27,100 Dr. Nowzaradan: TODAY, WE ARE ATTEMPTING TO PERFORM 1051 00:59:27,100 --> 00:59:30,300 A SLEEVE GASTRECTOMY ON CYNTHIA. 1052 00:59:30,300 --> 00:59:32,200 WE HAVE TO BE VERY CAREFUL 1053 00:59:32,200 --> 00:59:36,067 NOT TO DO ANYTHING TO PUSH HER BODY OVER THE LIMIT. 1054 00:59:36,067 --> 00:59:39,200 BUT WE ALSO HAVE TO WORK FAST. 1055 00:59:39,200 --> 00:59:41,567 TURN THE ROOM LIGHTS OFF. 1056 00:59:41,567 --> 00:59:43,533 BECAUSE THE LONGER SHE'S UNDER, 1057 00:59:43,533 --> 00:59:48,733 THE GREATER THE CHANCES OF A FATAL EVENT OCCURRING. 1058 00:59:48,733 --> 00:59:50,833 DURING GASTRIC SLEEVE OPERATION, 1059 00:59:50,833 --> 00:59:55,200 WE REMOVE 70% TO 80% OF THE STOMACH. 1060 00:59:55,200 --> 00:59:58,100 AFTER WE REMOVE THE MAJORITY OF THE STOMACH, 1061 00:59:58,100 --> 01:00:01,900 WE LEAVE A LONG, SKINNY TUBE IN PLACE. 1062 01:00:04,833 --> 01:00:07,733 GO FORWARD. LEAVE IT RIGHT THERE. 1063 01:00:07,733 --> 01:00:10,600 IN THE SHORT TERM, SLEEVE GASTRECTOMY CAN BE 1064 01:00:10,600 --> 01:00:13,433 AS EFFECTIVE AS GASTRIC BYPASS 1065 01:00:13,433 --> 01:00:18,200 BECAUSE THE PATIENT'S FOOD INTAKE IS DRASTICALLY LIMITED. 1066 01:00:18,200 --> 01:00:22,300 SO THEY WILL FEEL FULL VERY QUICKLY AFTER EATING, 1067 01:00:22,300 --> 01:00:24,967 WHICH WILL GIVE THEM AN OPPORTUNITY 1068 01:00:24,967 --> 01:00:27,033 TO BEGIN LOSING WEIGHT. 1069 01:00:29,700 --> 01:00:33,433 MY MOM IS A VERY IMPORTANT PERSON IN MY WHOLE LIFE, 1070 01:00:33,433 --> 01:00:36,167 PROBABLY LIKE THE TOP OF THE LIST. 1071 01:00:36,167 --> 01:00:38,367 AND I DON'T WANT TO SEE HER DIE. 1072 01:00:38,367 --> 01:00:41,100 Ukiah: RIGHT NOW IT IS A LITTLE NERVE-RACKING FOR ME 1073 01:00:41,100 --> 01:00:45,433 'CAUSE I JUST WANT TO KNOW THAT SHE'S OKAY. 1074 01:00:45,433 --> 01:00:47,033 I THINK IT IS VERY IMPORTANT FOR HER 1075 01:00:47,033 --> 01:00:48,533 TO KNOW THAT WE'RE WAITING FOR HER 1076 01:00:48,533 --> 01:00:50,567 AND WE'RE WITH HER EVERY STEP OF THE WAY. 1077 01:00:50,567 --> 01:00:53,233 Dr. Nowzaradan: WHEN YOU HAVE A STOMACH THAT THAT'S BIG, 1078 01:00:53,233 --> 01:00:55,733 YOU'RE NEVER GONNA GET FULL. 1079 01:00:58,700 --> 01:01:00,367 ALL RIGHT. LOOKS GOOD. 1080 01:01:00,367 --> 01:01:02,533 LET'S GET HER CLOSED UP. 1081 01:01:02,533 --> 01:01:04,400 OKAY. ROOM LIGHT ON. 1082 01:01:06,633 --> 01:01:09,600 ALL RIGHT, WE'RE DONE. 1083 01:01:09,600 --> 01:01:11,900 CYNTHIA'S SURGERY WENT VERY WELL. 1084 01:01:11,900 --> 01:01:13,933 THIS WAS AN OPERATION 1085 01:01:13,933 --> 01:01:16,067 THAT DIDN'T TAKE MORE THAN HALF AN HOUR, 1086 01:01:16,067 --> 01:01:19,433 SO THERE WERE NO ISSUES WITH ANESTHESIA. 1087 01:01:19,433 --> 01:01:23,900 AND SHE DID VERY WELL WITH HER SURGERY. 1088 01:01:23,900 --> 01:01:26,067 CYNTHIA IS VERY EMOTIONAL, 1089 01:01:26,067 --> 01:01:31,067 AND SHE HAS WORKED HARD TO ACHIEVE THIS SPECIFIC GOAL. 1090 01:01:31,067 --> 01:01:33,400 NOW THAT THE GOAL IS NO LONGER THERE 1091 01:01:33,400 --> 01:01:36,267 AND THE HARD WORK HAS TO CONTINUE, 1092 01:01:36,267 --> 01:01:38,933 SHE MAY STRUGGLE LIKE SHE DID IN THE BEGINNING 1093 01:01:38,933 --> 01:01:40,833 AND RUN THE RISK OF HER LIFE 1094 01:01:40,833 --> 01:01:45,267 AND CIRCUMSTANCES CONTROLLING HER AGAIN. 1095 01:01:45,267 --> 01:01:47,100 THIS SURGERY WILL HELP 1096 01:01:47,100 --> 01:01:49,600 TO PREVENT HER FROM TURNING TO FOOD. 1097 01:01:49,600 --> 01:01:53,600 BUT IF SHE DOESN'T DEAL WITH SOME OF HER DEEPER ISSUES, 1098 01:01:53,600 --> 01:01:57,700 IT'S ONLY A MATTER OF TIME BEFORE SHE TURNS BACK TO IT. 1099 01:02:09,067 --> 01:02:11,400 Cynthia: IT'S BEEN A WEEK SINCE MY SURGERY. 1100 01:02:11,400 --> 01:02:15,833 I WAS DISCHARGED YESTERDAY, AND I'M RECOVERING IN THE HOTEL. 1101 01:02:15,833 --> 01:02:20,167 RIGHT NOW I'VE LOST ALL CRAVINGS FOR FOOD, 1102 01:02:20,167 --> 01:02:24,667 AND IT'S A COMPLETELY UNFAMILIAR SENSATION TO ME. 1103 01:02:24,667 --> 01:02:28,500 I DON'T REALLY KNOW WHAT TO DO WITH MYSELF RIGHT NOW. 1104 01:02:28,500 --> 01:02:30,300 THE DOCTOR WANTS TO ME TO STAY IN HOUSTON 1105 01:02:30,300 --> 01:02:32,300 FOR ANOTHER WEEK TO BE SAFE. 1106 01:02:32,300 --> 01:02:35,367 BUT MY FAMILY HAD TO GO BACK TO OKLAHOMA. 1107 01:02:35,367 --> 01:02:37,400 SO MY BROTHER'S COMING DOWN TO VISIT ME 1108 01:02:37,400 --> 01:02:40,933 TO SEE HOW I'M DOING. 1109 01:02:40,933 --> 01:02:42,767 HEY, WHAT'S UP, T.T.? 1110 01:02:42,767 --> 01:02:45,900 -HEY. -HOW YOU DOING? 1111 01:02:45,900 --> 01:02:48,200 HEY, MAMA. WHAT'S GOING ON? 1112 01:02:48,200 --> 01:02:50,467 -HOW YOU FEELING? -GOOD. 1113 01:02:50,467 --> 01:02:52,533 I DON'T WANT TO HURT NOTHING. 1114 01:02:52,533 --> 01:02:54,667 HURTING? I'M GOOD. 1115 01:02:57,067 --> 01:02:58,733 SO, HOW'D EVERYTHING GO? 1116 01:02:58,733 --> 01:03:00,700 IT WENT GOOD. 1117 01:03:00,700 --> 01:03:02,900 CAN I GET SOME DETAILS? WHAT THE DOCTOR SAY? 1118 01:03:02,900 --> 01:03:04,133 IMMEDIATELY AFTER SURGERY, 1119 01:03:04,133 --> 01:03:07,867 THE PAIN WAS LIKE WORSE THAN GIVING BIRTH TWICE. 1120 01:03:07,867 --> 01:03:09,467 -REALLY? -YEAH, I WAS LIKE, 1121 01:03:09,467 --> 01:03:11,067 "WHAT THE HELL HAVE YOU DONE? 1122 01:03:11,067 --> 01:03:12,500 CAN YOU SHOW ME YOUR SCARS? 1123 01:03:12,500 --> 01:03:16,333 NO, I'M NOT GONNA SHOW YOU MY SCARS. 1124 01:03:16,333 --> 01:03:17,967 HOW IS SHE DOING? 1125 01:03:17,967 --> 01:03:20,400 'CAUSE I'M ONLY GONNA GET A CERTAIN AMOUNT OF INFORMATION. 1126 01:03:20,400 --> 01:03:21,733 I MEAN, I'M GOOD. 1127 01:03:21,733 --> 01:03:23,267 THE WORST PAIN THAT SHE HAS 1128 01:03:23,267 --> 01:03:24,800 IS PROBABLY WHEN SHE'S ASLEEP 1129 01:03:24,800 --> 01:03:26,500 'CAUSE SHE CAN'T GET COMFORTABLE. 1130 01:03:26,500 --> 01:03:28,867 TAKE THE PAIN MEDICATION TO HELP YOU RELAX. 1131 01:03:28,867 --> 01:03:30,700 CLARENCE, THAT'S -- OKAY. 1132 01:03:30,700 --> 01:03:32,833 PAIN MEDICATION IS NOT GONNA FIX 1133 01:03:32,833 --> 01:03:35,133 ME BEING ABLE TO SLEEP ON MY STOMACH. 1134 01:03:35,133 --> 01:03:37,500 AND IT HURTS TO SLEEP ON MY BACK. 1135 01:03:37,500 --> 01:03:39,900 PAIN MEDICATION IS NOT GONNA FIX THAT, EITHER. 1136 01:03:39,900 --> 01:03:43,533 I GOT A BIG BOOTY. SO THE FACT OF ME -- 1137 01:03:43,533 --> 01:03:48,267 YOU WANTED TO GO THERE, SO THIS IS WHERE WE'RE GONNA GO. 1138 01:03:48,267 --> 01:03:50,233 Clarence: I WAS EXPECTING TO SEE SOME RELIEF 1139 01:03:50,233 --> 01:03:51,833 AND A SENSE OF ACHIEVEMENT, 1140 01:03:51,833 --> 01:03:54,700 AND I DON'T THINK SHE IS ALLOWING HERSELF 1141 01:03:54,700 --> 01:03:56,933 TO FEEL ANY OF THAT RIGHT NOW. 1142 01:03:56,933 --> 01:04:00,733 CYNTHIA DOESN'T OUTWARDLY SHOW THE EMOTIONS ALL THE TIME. 1143 01:04:00,733 --> 01:04:03,467 SHE KEEPS A LOT OF HER FEELINGS BOTTLED UP, 1144 01:04:03,467 --> 01:04:06,233 AND THAT'S BEEN HER WHOLE LIFE. 1145 01:04:06,233 --> 01:04:07,633 -SO... -YES. 1146 01:04:07,633 --> 01:04:09,533 WHAT ARE YOU ABLE TO EAT? 1147 01:04:09,533 --> 01:04:12,267 FOUR OUNCES EVERY HOUR. 1148 01:04:12,267 --> 01:04:18,500 JELL-O, POPSICLES, CHICKEN BROTH, WATER. 1149 01:04:18,500 --> 01:04:20,967 HELL, I'VE BEEN STARVING FOR THREE DAYS. 1150 01:04:20,967 --> 01:04:22,100 HOW'S YOUR MIND-SET NOW? 1151 01:04:22,100 --> 01:04:24,300 I MEAN, YOU GOT THE SURGERY FINALLY. 1152 01:04:24,300 --> 01:04:26,167 I THINK MY FEELINGS ARE NUMB 1153 01:04:26,167 --> 01:04:28,967 BECAUSE I'VE BEEN THROUGH SO MUCH. 1154 01:04:28,967 --> 01:04:32,167 THROUGH THIS ALL, I HAVE HAD TO MAKE 1155 01:04:32,167 --> 01:04:36,167 FIVE KIDS GO WITHOUT SOMETHING TO MAKE THIS HAPPEN. 1156 01:04:36,167 --> 01:04:40,267 WELL, IT'S NOT FAIR TO THEM TO MAKE THEM GO WITHOUT. 1157 01:04:40,267 --> 01:04:44,200 I HAD MY DOUBTS ABOUT HOW YOU WOULD GET HERE, 1158 01:04:44,200 --> 01:04:47,067 AND I CAN TELL YOU RIGHT NOW SITTING RIGHT HERE 1159 01:04:47,067 --> 01:04:48,667 I'M PROUD OF YOU. 1160 01:04:48,667 --> 01:04:51,067 [ LAUGHS ] 1161 01:04:51,067 --> 01:04:53,733 YOU SHOWED MY A WHOLE DIFFERENT SIDE OF YOU. 1162 01:04:53,733 --> 01:04:56,633 OKAY, SO, LISTEN. 1163 01:04:56,633 --> 01:05:00,067 YOU HAVE BEEN HERE FROM DAY ONE. 1164 01:05:00,067 --> 01:05:01,900 YOU HAVE STUCK IT OUT 1165 01:05:01,900 --> 01:05:05,700 THROUGH MY TEMPER TANTRUMS AND... 1166 01:05:05,700 --> 01:05:07,233 PITY PARTIES. 1167 01:05:07,233 --> 01:05:10,267 I'M NOT NECESSARILY GONNA SAY I HAVE PITY PARTIES. 1168 01:05:10,267 --> 01:05:12,700 I JUST DON'T THINK PEOPLE UNDERSTAND ME 1169 01:05:12,700 --> 01:05:14,467 'CAUSE I'M A COMPLEX BEING. 1170 01:05:14,467 --> 01:05:16,500 THAT'S A NICE WAY OF PUTTING IT. 1171 01:05:16,500 --> 01:05:20,200 YOUR ACTS OF KINDNESS HAVE NOT GONE UNNOTICED, 1172 01:05:20,200 --> 01:05:22,933 AND I APPRECIATE EVERYTHING YOU'VE DONE 1173 01:05:22,933 --> 01:05:26,067 AND EVERYTHING YOU WILL DO FROM HERE ON OUT. 1174 01:05:26,067 --> 01:05:27,400 AND I LOVE YOU. 1175 01:05:27,400 --> 01:05:29,533 I DID WHAT A BIG BROTHER'S SUPPOSED TO DO. 1176 01:05:29,533 --> 01:05:31,967 Clarence: MY MIND-SET WITH HER HAS ALWAYS BEEN, 1177 01:05:31,967 --> 01:05:34,333 "I'M GONNA PUSH YOU. I'M GONNA ENCOURAGE YOU. 1178 01:05:34,333 --> 01:05:36,600 I DON'T WANT TO BE INVITED TO THE PITY PARTY. 1179 01:05:36,600 --> 01:05:39,067 I WANT YOU TO GET BACK IN THE FIGHT, AND LET'S FINISH THIS." 1180 01:05:39,067 --> 01:05:41,300 AND IT TOOK HER A LITTLE BIT TO GET BACK ON TRACK, 1181 01:05:41,300 --> 01:05:46,533 BUT SHE DID, AND I COULDN'T BE MORE PROUD AND EXCITED FOR HER. 1182 01:05:46,533 --> 01:05:49,767 I'LL SEE YOU LATER. 1183 01:05:49,767 --> 01:05:54,667 Cynthia: I'M GLAD MY BROTHER CAME TO VISIT ME. 1184 01:05:54,667 --> 01:05:56,967 IT WAS REALLY ENCOURAGING, 1185 01:05:56,967 --> 01:05:59,400 AND HE'S ALWAYS BEEN THERE TO SUPPORT ME. 1186 01:06:01,567 --> 01:06:05,600 THIS IS ALREADY HARDER THAN I THOUGHT IT WAS GOING TO BE. 1187 01:06:05,600 --> 01:06:09,267 SO I KNOW I'M GOING TO NEED EVERYONE'S SUPPORT TO DO THIS. 1188 01:06:20,533 --> 01:06:24,267 TODAY, I'M SEEING THE DOCTOR FOR MY FIRST SURGERY FOLLOW-UP. 1189 01:06:24,267 --> 01:06:27,367 HE'S GONNA SEE HOW I'M DOING AND WHAT PROGRESS I'M MAKING 1190 01:06:27,367 --> 01:06:29,400 TO SEE IF I'M READY TO GO HOME. 1191 01:06:29,400 --> 01:06:31,233 CYNTHIA WELLS. 1192 01:06:31,233 --> 01:06:33,433 IT'S BEEN 10 DAYS SINCE MY SURGERY, 1193 01:06:33,433 --> 01:06:35,900 AND I HAVE TO GET BACK TO MY KIDS. 1194 01:06:35,900 --> 01:06:37,400 MY CAR IS PACKED AND READY, 1195 01:06:37,400 --> 01:06:40,233 SO I'M EXPECTING MY PROGRESS TO BE GOOD 1196 01:06:40,233 --> 01:06:43,067 AND FOR THE DOCTOR TO GIVE ME SOME GOOD NEWS. 1197 01:06:45,267 --> 01:06:47,367 I'VE KEPT ON WITH MY WEIGHT LOSS. 1198 01:06:47,367 --> 01:06:50,267 THERE'S NO REASON HE SHOULD KEEP ME HERE ANY LONGER. 1199 01:06:52,467 --> 01:06:55,867 -510. -THAT'S GOOD. 1200 01:06:55,867 --> 01:06:59,533 Cynthia: I'M REALLY HAPPY ABOUT THAT NUMBER. 1201 01:06:59,533 --> 01:07:03,567 I'M CLOSE TO THE 400s, AND IT'S REALLY EXCITING FOR ME. 1202 01:07:03,567 --> 01:07:06,200 LETS ME KNOW THAT I ACTUALLY DID HAVE SURGERY. 1203 01:07:06,200 --> 01:07:09,700 [ LAUGHS ] 1204 01:07:09,700 --> 01:07:11,167 BUT I'M GONNA BE REALLY UPSET 1205 01:07:11,167 --> 01:07:15,900 IF HE DOESN'T CLEAR ME TO RETURN BACK HOME TODAY. 1206 01:07:15,900 --> 01:07:17,467 -HELLO. -HOW YOU DOING? 1207 01:07:17,467 --> 01:07:19,467 I'M DOING OKAY. HOW ARE Y'ALL DOING? 1208 01:07:19,467 --> 01:07:20,600 GOOD. 1209 01:07:20,600 --> 01:07:24,067 TODAY IS YOUR 10 DAY AFTER SURGERY, HUH? 1210 01:07:24,067 --> 01:07:25,200 YEP. 1211 01:07:25,200 --> 01:07:26,500 ALL RIGHT. HOW IS EVERYTHING COMING ALONG? 1212 01:07:26,500 --> 01:07:27,667 GREAT. 1213 01:07:27,667 --> 01:07:29,633 HOW IS YOUR PAIN AND DISCOMFORT? 1214 01:07:29,633 --> 01:07:31,533 -I DON'T HAVE ANY. -OKAY. 1215 01:07:31,533 --> 01:07:32,867 AND LIQUID GOING DOWN OKAY? 1216 01:07:32,867 --> 01:07:34,633 -MM-HMM. -OKAY. 1217 01:07:34,633 --> 01:07:38,600 LET'S SEE WHAT THE INCISION LOOKS LIKE. 1218 01:07:38,600 --> 01:07:40,800 OKAY, THEY'RE ALL HEALING PRETTY GOOD. 1219 01:07:40,800 --> 01:07:44,233 SO, YOU ARE DOWN TO ABOUT 510. 1220 01:07:44,233 --> 01:07:48,333 THIS EXACTLY -- YOU HAVE LOST 100 POUNDS SO FAR. 1221 01:07:48,333 --> 01:07:50,333 DO YOU FEEL ANY DIFFERENT? 1222 01:07:50,333 --> 01:07:52,400 -I DO. -YOU DO? 1223 01:07:52,400 --> 01:07:53,900 -YEAH. -YOU'RE OKAY TO TRAVEL. 1224 01:07:53,900 --> 01:07:55,233 -YOU CAN GO BACK. -OKAY. 1225 01:07:55,233 --> 01:07:56,967 BUT I'M ARRANGING FOR YOU 1226 01:07:56,967 --> 01:08:00,167 TO START SEEING A THERAPIST IN OKLAHOMA CITY. 1227 01:08:00,167 --> 01:08:02,267 -OKAY. -BECAUSE I WANT YOU TO START 1228 01:08:02,267 --> 01:08:04,133 DISCUSSING SOME THINGS WITH THEM 1229 01:08:04,133 --> 01:08:06,733 SO YOU CAN BE SUCCESSFUL IN THE LONG TERM. 1230 01:08:06,733 --> 01:08:08,300 -OKAY. -OKAY? 1231 01:08:08,300 --> 01:08:11,233 Dr. Nowzaradan: CYNTHIA IS FINE TO GO BACK HOME. 1232 01:08:11,233 --> 01:08:14,833 OKLAHOMA CITY IS ONLY ABOUT SEVEN HOURS AWAY, 1233 01:08:14,833 --> 01:08:19,567 SO SHE CAN DRIVE BACK TO SEE ME IF SHE'S HAVING ANY PROBLEMS. 1234 01:08:19,567 --> 01:08:21,633 SHE IS STAYING ON TRACK RIGHT NOW, 1235 01:08:21,633 --> 01:08:25,600 BUT SHE WAS VERY EMOTIONAL IN THE HOSPITAL BEFORE SHE LEFT. 1236 01:08:25,600 --> 01:08:27,900 SO I'M CONCERNED THAT SHE'S GOING TO START 1237 01:08:27,900 --> 01:08:29,300 TO GO BACK TO FOOD 1238 01:08:29,300 --> 01:08:32,100 IF SHE DOESN'T ADDRESS WHAT HAS BEEN AT THE CORE 1239 01:08:32,100 --> 01:08:35,767 OF HER OVEREATING ALL THESE YEARS. 1240 01:08:35,767 --> 01:08:38,367 SO, THE GOAL WILL BE THAT YOU SHOULD BE ABLE 1241 01:08:38,367 --> 01:08:40,767 -TO LOSE 25 POUNDS A MONTH. -OKAY. 1242 01:08:40,767 --> 01:08:43,333 AND SO, OVER THE NEXT FOUR MONTHS, 1243 01:08:43,333 --> 01:08:46,067 -YOU'RE GONNA BE UNDER 400. -OKAY. 1244 01:08:46,067 --> 01:08:49,600 SO THAT'S GONNA BE A NEW WEIGHT FOR YOU, OKAY? 1245 01:08:49,600 --> 01:08:52,067 -IT IS. -HAVE A GOOD TRIP. 1246 01:08:52,067 --> 01:08:53,567 -THANK YOU. -I'LL SEE YOU LATER. 1247 01:08:53,567 --> 01:08:57,300 -BYE. -I'LL SEE YOU LATER. 1248 01:08:57,300 --> 01:09:00,100 CYNTHIA SEEMS TO BE IN SOME DENIAL 1249 01:09:00,100 --> 01:09:02,433 ABOUT THERE BEING ANY CORRELATION 1250 01:09:02,433 --> 01:09:06,367 BETWEEN HOW SHE FEELS AND HER DRIVE TO EAT. 1251 01:09:06,367 --> 01:09:08,167 SO WE NEED TO GET AT THAT, 1252 01:09:08,167 --> 01:09:11,267 OR SHE'S GOING TO GAIN WEIGHT IN THE LONG TERM. 1253 01:09:15,933 --> 01:09:17,467 Cynthia: I'M REALLY EXCITED. 1254 01:09:17,467 --> 01:09:21,200 I GET TO GO HOME AND SEE MY KIDS. 1255 01:09:21,200 --> 01:09:23,700 BEING APART FROM THEM HAS BEEN THE HARDEST PART 1256 01:09:23,700 --> 01:09:26,667 OF THIS WHOLE SURGERY. 1257 01:09:26,667 --> 01:09:28,900 I APPRECIATE EVERYTHING DR. NOW IS SAYING, 1258 01:09:28,900 --> 01:09:32,233 BUT I DON'T THINK I NEED TO GO TO ANY THERAPY. 1259 01:09:32,233 --> 01:09:36,967 EVERYONE THINKS I USE FOOD TO DEAL WITH MY EMOTIONS, 1260 01:09:36,967 --> 01:09:40,067 BUT THAT'S NOT THE CASE AT ALL. 1261 01:09:40,067 --> 01:09:44,900 I JUST LOVE TO EAT, AND I'M LOSING WEIGHT NOW. 1262 01:09:44,900 --> 01:09:48,200 SO I DON'T SEE A NEED TO DO ANY THERAPY RIGHT NOW. 1263 01:09:48,200 --> 01:09:51,800 SO I'M GONNA GET HOME AND KEEP DOING WHAT I'M DOING. 1264 01:09:57,933 --> 01:10:00,067 ** 1265 01:10:04,133 --> 01:10:06,733 Cynthia: I'VE BEEN BACK HOME FOR A DAY NOW. 1266 01:10:06,733 --> 01:10:08,533 IT WAS SO GOOD TO GET BACK, 1267 01:10:08,533 --> 01:10:11,100 AND I'M HAPPY TO BE BACK HOME WITH MY KIDS. 1268 01:10:11,100 --> 01:10:15,100 ROBERT, KIAH, JORDAN, AND SHAQUILLE. 1269 01:10:15,100 --> 01:10:17,900 THEY'VE BEEN SUCH A BIG PART OF MY MOTIVATION, 1270 01:10:17,900 --> 01:10:19,833 AND I WANTED TO DO SOMETHING TO SHOW THEM 1271 01:10:19,833 --> 01:10:21,667 HOW MUCH I LOVE THEM 1272 01:10:21,667 --> 01:10:23,900 AND HOW MUCH THEY'VE BEEN ON MY MIND. 1273 01:10:23,900 --> 01:10:26,400 OKAY, SO, WHILE I WAS IN HOUSTON, 1274 01:10:26,400 --> 01:10:28,100 I WANTED TO MAKE SOMETHING SPECIAL 1275 01:10:28,100 --> 01:10:30,300 FOR EACH ONE OF YOU ALL. 1276 01:10:30,300 --> 01:10:32,200 LIKE, I JUST THOUGHT THIS WAS, LIKE, THE PERFECT PICTURE 1277 01:10:32,200 --> 01:10:35,100 OF YOU RIDING MY SHOULDERS. 1278 01:10:35,100 --> 01:10:37,167 I WAS MISSING THEM SO MUCH, 1279 01:10:37,167 --> 01:10:39,500 SO MADE THEM EACH A KIND OF PERSONALIZED 1280 01:10:39,500 --> 01:10:43,333 PICTURE FRAME TO SHOW OFF THEIR PERSONALITY. 1281 01:10:43,333 --> 01:10:47,000 I JUST WANTED THEM TO KNOW HOW MUCH I WAS THINKING OF THEM. 1282 01:10:47,000 --> 01:10:48,700 I ONLY SAW MOM ONLINE WHILE SHE WAS AWAY. 1283 01:10:48,700 --> 01:10:51,867 I WAS HOPING THAT SHE WAS OKAY 'CAUSE I WASN'T THERE. 1284 01:10:51,867 --> 01:10:56,433 IT SHOCKED ME A LOT TO SEE HOW MUCH WEIGHT SHE'S LOST. 1285 01:10:56,433 --> 01:10:59,033 AT FIRST, WHEN I SAW THE PICTURES OF YOU -- 1286 01:10:59,033 --> 01:11:01,667 AND YOUR CHEEKS, THEY USED TO BE LIKE BIG LIKE THIS, 1287 01:11:01,667 --> 01:11:04,067 LIKE A SQUIRREL. -LOOK AT THAT PICTURE. 1288 01:11:04,067 --> 01:11:07,267 BUT NOW WHEN YOU SMILE, YOUR FACE IS LIKE THIS. 1289 01:11:07,267 --> 01:11:08,233 [ LAUGHS ] 1290 01:11:10,900 --> 01:11:12,367 YOUR BELLY USED TO BE TOUCHING THE STEERING WHEEL. 1291 01:11:12,367 --> 01:11:15,067 YOU WERE LIKE, "OH, MY GOSH, I NEED TO LOSE WEIGHT, 1292 01:11:15,067 --> 01:11:16,200 JUST, O.M.G." 1293 01:11:16,200 --> 01:11:17,967 I THINK YOU SHOULD DO EACH AND EVERY ONE 1294 01:11:17,967 --> 01:11:20,100 OF THESE PICTURES OVER AGAIN 1295 01:11:20,100 --> 01:11:23,300 AND SEE HOW MUCH IT CHANGED. 1296 01:11:23,300 --> 01:11:24,733 PRETTY MUCH, WE'RE GOING TO HELP HER 1297 01:11:24,733 --> 01:11:28,533 BY SUPPORTING HER AND BEING A FAMILY. 1298 01:11:28,533 --> 01:11:30,933 Cynthia: I DO FEEL LIKE THIS IS THE START OF A NEW LIFE FOR ME. 1299 01:11:30,933 --> 01:11:32,733 LIKE, I'M EXCITED TO SEE 1300 01:11:32,733 --> 01:11:36,233 WHAT HAPPENS WITH, LIKE, EVERY 50 POUNDS. 1301 01:11:36,233 --> 01:11:40,400 AND I'M REALLY EXCITED ABOUT DOING MORE WITH THEM. 1302 01:11:40,400 --> 01:11:43,500 I'VE ALREADY MISSED OUT ON DOING SO MUCH. 1303 01:11:43,500 --> 01:11:45,500 I DON'T WANT TO WASTE ANOTHER MINUTE. 1304 01:11:45,500 --> 01:11:48,733 WHY YOU KEEP PUTTING DOWN 3s? 1305 01:11:48,733 --> 01:11:50,167 [ LAUGHTER ] 1306 01:11:50,167 --> 01:11:52,667 THEY'RE SUCH A HUGE PART OF MY LIFE. 1307 01:11:52,667 --> 01:11:53,700 [ LAUGHTER ] 1308 01:11:53,700 --> 01:11:56,433 I JUST WANT TO BE THERE FOR THEM. 1309 01:11:56,433 --> 01:11:57,600 THEY KEEP ME MOTIVATED. 1310 01:11:57,600 --> 01:11:59,300 THEY'RE THE REASON I WAS ON THIS JOURNEY 1311 01:11:59,300 --> 01:12:01,433 IN THE FIRST PLACE, SO I JUST TRY 1312 01:12:01,433 --> 01:12:04,400 TO DISCIPLINE MYSELF TO REFRAIN FROM EATING 1313 01:12:04,400 --> 01:12:07,967 THE STUFF THAT I COOK FOR THEM. 1314 01:12:07,967 --> 01:12:12,500 I'VE BEEN STARTING TO FEEL THE TEMPTATION TO EAT A LITTLE. 1315 01:12:12,500 --> 01:12:14,067 BUT I'VE BEEN PUSHING PAST IT 1316 01:12:14,067 --> 01:12:18,567 BECAUSE I DON'T WANT TO GIVE IN AND START GAINING AT ANY POINT. 1317 01:12:20,300 --> 01:12:22,367 Ukiah: IT'S DELICIOUS. 1318 01:12:22,367 --> 01:12:26,100 I WANT TO KEEP MAKING THE PROGRESS I HAVE BEEN. 1319 01:12:26,100 --> 01:12:28,767 AND I DON'T WANT TO DO ANYTHING TO MESS THAT UP. 1320 01:12:43,400 --> 01:12:45,467 TODAY, I'M GOING TO GET MY HAIR DONE. 1321 01:12:47,900 --> 01:12:50,633 I'M ALWAYS THERE FOR EVERYONE, 1322 01:12:50,633 --> 01:12:54,967 SO I DECIDED I COULD DO SOMETHING LITTLE FOR ME TODAY. 1323 01:12:54,967 --> 01:12:57,167 I LOVE GOING TO GET MY HAIR DONE, 1324 01:12:57,167 --> 01:12:59,567 SO I'M, LIKE, SUPER EXCITED. 1325 01:12:59,567 --> 01:13:03,133 I'VE HAD A HAIR STYLIST WHO'S BEEN WITH ME FOR YEARS. 1326 01:13:03,133 --> 01:13:05,200 -WHAT'S UP? -WHAT'S UP? 1327 01:13:05,200 --> 01:13:07,367 AND IT WAS GETTING HARD FOR ME TO GOT TO HER 1328 01:13:07,367 --> 01:13:08,900 AND SIT IN HER LITTLE CHAIR. 1329 01:13:08,900 --> 01:13:10,233 OKAY. 1330 01:13:10,233 --> 01:13:13,267 CYNTHIA LOOKS DIFFERENT. 1331 01:13:13,267 --> 01:13:15,233 YOU CAN DEFINITELY TELL THERE'S A DIFFERENCE, 1332 01:13:15,233 --> 01:13:17,100 THAT SOMETHING'S GOING ON. 1333 01:13:17,100 --> 01:13:19,067 SO YOU SEEM LIKE YOU'RE GETTING AROUND STUFF, GIRL. 1334 01:13:19,067 --> 01:13:20,133 GIRL, YOU KNOW WHAT? 1335 01:13:20,133 --> 01:13:22,700 IT'S, LIKE, REALLY SCARY 'CAUSE I HAVE NO PAIN. 1336 01:13:22,700 --> 01:13:25,367 I MEAN, LIKE, I DIDN'T HAVE ANY MORE AFTER THAT FIRST DAY. 1337 01:13:25,367 --> 01:13:27,200 MM-HMM. OH, YEAH, YOU DID GOOD THEN. 1338 01:13:29,300 --> 01:13:30,900 Cynthia: IT HAD GOTTEN TO THE POINT 1339 01:13:30,900 --> 01:13:34,500 WHERE I COULDN'T HANDLE SITTING IN THE CHAIR OF SO LONG 1340 01:13:34,500 --> 01:13:37,067 AND MOVING AROUND SO MUCH. -COME ON OVER HERE. 1341 01:13:37,067 --> 01:13:39,467 LET'S GET THIS RELAXER WASHED OUT. 1342 01:13:39,467 --> 01:13:42,100 -OKAY. -LOOK AT YOU ALL EASING 1343 01:13:42,100 --> 01:13:44,067 IN THE CHAIR LIKE IT AIN'T NOTHING NOW. 1344 01:13:44,067 --> 01:13:46,467 LOOK AT YOU! -[ LAUGHS ] 1345 01:13:46,467 --> 01:13:49,067 WHEN SHE USED TO COME IN, IT WOULD TAKE SOME TIME 1346 01:13:49,067 --> 01:13:51,567 FOR HER TO GET IN THE CHAIR AND GET UP AND GO TO THE DRYER 1347 01:13:51,567 --> 01:13:52,800 OR COME BACK TO THE SHAMPOO BOWL. 1348 01:13:52,800 --> 01:13:55,100 IT WAS JUST A LITTLE BIT OF A STRUGGLE. 1349 01:13:55,100 --> 01:13:58,167 BUT SHE DID IT WITH EASE TODAY. 1350 01:13:58,167 --> 01:14:00,333 Nikky: WHAT CAN YOU EAT NOW? HOW MUCH CAN YOU EAT? 1351 01:14:00,333 --> 01:14:02,467 Cynthia: RIGHT NOW, I CAN ONLY EAT PUREED FOODS. 1352 01:14:02,467 --> 01:14:04,767 -BABY FOOD. -RIGHT, BABY FOOD. 1353 01:14:04,767 --> 01:14:07,467 I'M STILL ONLY ABLE TO EAT SMALL AMOUNTS, THOUGH, NIKKY. 1354 01:14:07,467 --> 01:14:09,067 THAT WOULD BE HARD FOR ME. 1355 01:14:10,300 --> 01:14:12,333 IT'S GOOD. TRY IT, IT'S PROTEIN. 1356 01:14:12,333 --> 01:14:14,200 OH, MY GOD. TREY! 1357 01:14:14,200 --> 01:14:16,800 [ BOTH LAUGH ] 1358 01:14:16,800 --> 01:14:18,067 YOU WANT SOME OF MY BAR? 1359 01:14:18,067 --> 01:14:19,833 I DON'T WANT TO LOOK AT YOUR BAR, TREY. 1360 01:14:19,833 --> 01:14:22,567 -PUT IT IN YOUR MOUTH. -[ LAUGHS ] 1361 01:14:22,567 --> 01:14:27,333 CAN YOU GET AWAY FROM US SO I CAN FINISH MY CLIENT? 1362 01:14:27,333 --> 01:14:31,067 Cynthia: I'M REALLY EXCITED ABOUT HOW FAR I'VE COME EVEN NOW. 1363 01:14:31,067 --> 01:14:34,367 ALL RIGHT, CYNTHIA, YOU ARE DONE, GIRL. 1364 01:14:34,367 --> 01:14:36,667 -THANK YOU. -MM-HMM. 1365 01:14:36,667 --> 01:14:38,567 Cynthia: I THINK I'M MORE CONFIDENT 1366 01:14:38,567 --> 01:14:40,733 THE MORE WEIGHT I LOSE. 1367 01:14:40,733 --> 01:14:44,367 TODAY WAS A GOOD DAY. 1368 01:14:44,367 --> 01:14:45,700 I WILL SEE YOU. 1369 01:14:45,700 --> 01:14:49,067 -ALL RIGHT, THANK YOU. -NEXT TIME -- YOU'RE WELCOME! 1370 01:14:49,067 --> 01:14:51,067 -THANK YOU, LARRY. -I'LL SEE YOU SATURDAY? 1371 01:14:51,067 --> 01:14:53,067 E.J., I'M NOT SAYING "THANK YOU" TO YOU. 1372 01:14:53,067 --> 01:14:54,533 [ CHUCKLES ] 1373 01:14:54,533 --> 01:14:58,067 Cynthia: GETTING MY HAIR DONE MAKES ME FEEL LIKE A NEW PERSON. 1374 01:14:58,067 --> 01:15:01,100 AND RIGHT NOW, THAT'S WHAT I FEEL LIKE I'M BECOMING. 1375 01:15:14,933 --> 01:15:15,967 Cynthia: YOU KNOW WHAT? 1376 01:15:15,967 --> 01:15:17,600 Y'ALL IN THESE JEANS THAT I'M NOT SURE 1377 01:15:17,600 --> 01:15:19,567 Y'ALL CAN EVEN WEAR ANYMORE. 1378 01:15:21,767 --> 01:15:22,967 Cynthia: OVER THE PAST MONTH, 1379 01:15:22,967 --> 01:15:27,233 I'VE FELT LIKE I'M HITTING A SMALL WALL. 1380 01:15:27,233 --> 01:15:28,933 IT'S BEEN HARDER TO DO THINGS, 1381 01:15:28,933 --> 01:15:31,433 AND I FELT THE CRAVINGS START TO COME BACK. 1382 01:15:31,433 --> 01:15:36,100 JORDAN, COME HELP ME WITH THE LAUNDRY. 1383 01:15:36,100 --> 01:15:37,467 AND IT'S BEEN REALLY HARD 1384 01:15:37,467 --> 01:15:40,900 TO AVOID THE TEMPTATION TO EAT A LOT OF THINGS. 1385 01:15:40,900 --> 01:15:43,767 GIVE ME THE LITTLE BOTTLE OF -- YEAH. 1386 01:15:43,767 --> 01:15:47,067 Cynthia: BUT I'VE STUCK WITH IT. 1387 01:15:47,067 --> 01:15:50,667 IT'S JUST MORE OF A STRUGGLE RIGHT NOW. 1388 01:15:50,667 --> 01:15:53,633 AND I DIDN'T EXPECT IT TO GET THIS HARD. 1389 01:15:53,633 --> 01:15:56,767 HEY, SHAQUILLE, GIVE ME THAT GARBAGE BAG. 1390 01:15:56,767 --> 01:15:59,067 Cynthia: GETTING BACK TO LIFE AND CHORES 1391 01:15:59,067 --> 01:16:03,633 AND TAKING CARE OF A FAMILY IS HARD WORK. 1392 01:16:03,633 --> 01:16:05,833 HEY, PUT THIS HANGER UP AND PUT IT IN THERE. 1393 01:16:05,833 --> 01:16:07,133 Cynthia: I AM CONCERNED 1394 01:16:07,133 --> 01:16:09,867 THAT IT'S GONNA KEEP GETTING WORSE AND HARDER, THOUGH. 1395 01:16:11,633 --> 01:16:14,100 I DON'T WANT TO START GAINING AGAIN. 1396 01:16:16,800 --> 01:16:19,800 I'VE COME SO FAR FOR MY KIDS, 1397 01:16:19,800 --> 01:16:22,367 AND I'M SCARED IF I CAN'T STICK WITH IT, 1398 01:16:22,367 --> 01:16:25,233 I'M GONNA GIVE IN. 1399 01:16:25,233 --> 01:16:26,600 I DON'T WANT TO MESS THIS UP. 1400 01:16:35,767 --> 01:16:37,900 Cynthia: MAKING THE DECISION TO CHANGE IS 1401 01:16:37,900 --> 01:16:41,500 THE SECOND-HARDEST THING YOU CAN DO IN LIFE. 1402 01:16:41,500 --> 01:16:45,367 MAKING THAT CHANGE HAPPEN IS THE HARDEST. 1403 01:17:04,533 --> 01:17:07,967 I'M GOING TO SEE A THERAPIST TODAY. 1404 01:17:07,967 --> 01:17:10,967 DR. NOW HAS BEEN PUSHING ME TO SEE A THERAPIST 1405 01:17:10,967 --> 01:17:12,700 TO WORK ON MY EMOTIONAL TRIGGER 1406 01:17:12,700 --> 01:17:15,367 LEADING ME TO FOOD. 1407 01:17:15,367 --> 01:17:18,233 BUT I DON'T HAVE AN EMOTIONAL TRIGGER. 1408 01:17:18,233 --> 01:17:19,433 I JUST LOVE TO EAT, 1409 01:17:19,433 --> 01:17:23,100 AND I NEED HELP GETTING RID OF THE CRAVINGS. 1410 01:17:23,100 --> 01:17:25,867 AND I THOUGHT SURGERY WAS GOING TO DO THAT. 1411 01:17:25,867 --> 01:17:28,367 HEY, CYNTHIA. I'M ASHLEY. 1412 01:17:28,367 --> 01:17:29,700 -HOW YOU DOING? -GOOD. 1413 01:17:29,700 --> 01:17:32,233 NICE TO MEET YOU. -NICE TO MEET YOU, TOO. 1414 01:17:32,233 --> 01:17:35,667 I DON'T HAVE A FOOD ADDICTION, AND I NEVER HAVE. 1415 01:17:35,667 --> 01:17:37,467 I JUST LOVE TO EAT. 1416 01:17:37,467 --> 01:17:41,467 SO, TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF. WHAT BROUGHT YOU HERE? 1417 01:17:41,467 --> 01:17:44,067 I'VE HAD WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY. 1418 01:17:44,067 --> 01:17:47,367 I'VE BEEN IN THIS PROCESS FOR ABOUT NINE MONTHS NOW. 1419 01:17:47,367 --> 01:17:49,867 MY DOCTOR WANTS HIS PATIENTS 1420 01:17:49,867 --> 01:17:51,833 TO SEE A THERAPIST 1421 01:17:51,833 --> 01:17:54,200 BECAUSE OF ALL THE CHANGES THAT YOU GO THROUGH. 1422 01:17:54,200 --> 01:17:56,433 BUT I JUST DON'T FEEL LIKE I HAVE ANY ISSUES 1423 01:17:56,433 --> 01:17:58,300 THAT I NEED TO POUR MY HEART OUT. 1424 01:17:58,300 --> 01:18:00,633 I'M NOT AN EMOTIONAL EATER. 1425 01:18:00,633 --> 01:18:01,867 I DON'T HAVE -- 1426 01:18:01,867 --> 01:18:06,167 I DON'T SEE A NEED FOR ME TO COME TO THERAPY. 1427 01:18:06,167 --> 01:18:07,233 OKAY. 1428 01:18:07,233 --> 01:18:10,633 SO, WHAT IS YOUR STORY? 1429 01:18:10,633 --> 01:18:12,867 KIND OF A SELFLESS PERSON -- 1430 01:18:12,867 --> 01:18:15,067 I'M WORRIED ABOUT EVERYBODY ELSE. 1431 01:18:15,067 --> 01:18:16,600 SO HOW DOES THAT RELATE, 1432 01:18:16,600 --> 01:18:18,800 OR HOW DID THAT RELATE TO THE WEIGHT GAIN? 1433 01:18:18,800 --> 01:18:21,600 MY OLDEST THREE KIDS ARE ADOPTED. 1434 01:18:21,600 --> 01:18:27,067 SO I WENT FROM BEING A SINGLE, 28-YEAR-OLD FEMALE 1435 01:18:27,067 --> 01:18:31,867 TO HAVING THREE PRETTY BANGED-UP KIDS OVERNIGHT. 1436 01:18:31,867 --> 01:18:34,567 SO, I MEAN, JUST -- LIFE HAPPENED. 1437 01:18:34,567 --> 01:18:37,167 I HEARD YOU SAY IN ONE BREATH, 1438 01:18:37,167 --> 01:18:38,967 "I'M NOT AN EMOTIONAL EATER." 1439 01:18:38,967 --> 01:18:41,567 BUT THEN, IN ANOTHER BREATH, YOU SAID, "LIFE HAPPENED." 1440 01:18:41,567 --> 01:18:45,167 SO, I GUESS, FOR ME, I'M CONFUSED. 1441 01:18:45,167 --> 01:18:46,667 WITH ALL OF THOSE EMOTIONS, 1442 01:18:46,667 --> 01:18:48,300 HOW WERE YOU COPING AT THAT TIME 1443 01:18:48,300 --> 01:18:50,200 IF YOU WEREN'T EATING? 1444 01:18:50,200 --> 01:18:52,867 I DIDN'T TURN TO FOOD AT ANY POINT. 1445 01:18:52,867 --> 01:18:55,133 I DON'T CONSIDER MYSELF AN EMOTIONAL EATER. 1446 01:18:55,133 --> 01:18:57,300 I DON'T TURN TO FOOD WHEN IT GETS HARD. 1447 01:18:57,300 --> 01:18:59,500 MM-HMM, SO, AT WHAT POINT 1448 01:18:59,500 --> 01:19:02,067 DID THE POUNDS START TO PILE ON? 1449 01:19:02,067 --> 01:19:03,567 WELL, I'VE ALWAYS BEEN OVERWEIGHT. 1450 01:19:03,567 --> 01:19:05,400 I MEAN, I DON'T EVER REMEMBER NOT -- 1451 01:19:05,400 --> 01:19:08,133 EVEN BEFORE THE KIDS AND ALL THAT, 1452 01:19:08,133 --> 01:19:09,833 I'VE ALWAYS BEEN OVERWEIGHT. 1453 01:19:09,833 --> 01:19:11,100 IT WASN'T A BIG DEAL. 1454 01:19:11,100 --> 01:19:13,500 BUT WE'RE SITTING HERE WHERE WE'VE GOTTEN TO A POINT 1455 01:19:13,500 --> 01:19:15,300 WHERE YOU WERE 600 POUNDS. 1456 01:19:15,300 --> 01:19:17,267 THAT'S ONE OF THE GENUINE CONCERNS 1457 01:19:17,267 --> 01:19:20,100 THAT I HAVE FOR YOU IS, 1458 01:19:20,100 --> 01:19:23,633 "WHAT IF LIFE HAPPENS AGAIN?" 1459 01:19:23,633 --> 01:19:27,433 IS THAT GOING TO CAUSE YOU TO SPIRAL BACK 1460 01:19:27,433 --> 01:19:30,133 INTO THE CYCLE OF WEIGHT GAIN? 1461 01:19:30,133 --> 01:19:31,967 THERE'S NO GUARANTEE ON ANYTHING. 1462 01:19:31,967 --> 01:19:34,100 -RIGHT. -I TAKE IT AS IT COMES. 1463 01:19:34,100 --> 01:19:36,700 SO, IF WE HAD TO COME UP WITH SOME GOALS 1464 01:19:36,700 --> 01:19:38,100 FOR YOU COMING HERE, 1465 01:19:38,100 --> 01:19:40,067 WHAT WOULD BE SOME OF THOSE GOALS, 1466 01:19:40,067 --> 01:19:43,100 SOMETHING THAT WE COULD WORK ON? 1467 01:19:43,100 --> 01:19:45,467 I DON'T KNOW 'CAUSE I DON'T FEEL LIKE 1468 01:19:45,467 --> 01:19:47,833 I NEED TO WORK ON ANYTHING. -NOTHING? 1469 01:19:47,833 --> 01:19:50,700 AT THIS TIME, I DON'T THINK THAT CYNTHIA IS 1470 01:19:50,700 --> 01:19:52,500 VERY RECEPTIVE TO THERAPY. 1471 01:19:52,500 --> 01:19:55,267 SHE DENIES THAT HER EATING MIGHT CONNECT 1472 01:19:55,267 --> 01:19:57,233 WITH HER EMOTIONAL PROBLEMS. 1473 01:19:57,233 --> 01:20:01,367 SHE HAS BUILT THIS STRONG AND TOUGH EXTERIOR 1474 01:20:01,367 --> 01:20:04,833 THAT I'M AFRAID MAY BE A BARRIER FOR HER 1475 01:20:04,833 --> 01:20:08,333 AS SHE GOES ON THIS JOURNEY TO LOSING THE WEIGHT 1476 01:20:08,333 --> 01:20:10,600 AND MAINTAINING HER WEIGHT LOSS. 1477 01:20:10,600 --> 01:20:12,833 Bryant: I JUST WANT YOU TO START THINKING ABOUT -- 1478 01:20:12,833 --> 01:20:16,067 EVEN IF IT'S NOT WITH ME, EVEN IF IT'S ON YOUR OWN -- 1479 01:20:16,067 --> 01:20:19,400 JUST THINKING ABOUT, "IF SOMETHING MAJOR HAPPENS 1480 01:20:19,400 --> 01:20:21,567 IN MY LIFE, HOW AM I GONNA GET THROUGH THIS 1481 01:20:21,567 --> 01:20:23,867 WITHOUT PUTTING THE WEIGHT BACK ON?" 1482 01:20:25,333 --> 01:20:28,967 WELL, I REALLY APPRECIATE YOU COMING IN 1483 01:20:28,967 --> 01:20:30,700 AND TELLING ME YOU STORY. 1484 01:20:30,700 --> 01:20:32,333 -OKAY. -IT WAS REALLY NICE MEETING YOU. 1485 01:20:32,333 --> 01:20:34,567 NICE MEETING YOU, TOO. 1486 01:20:34,567 --> 01:20:36,967 Cynthia: TODAY WAS A BIT OF A WASTE OF MY TIME 1487 01:20:36,967 --> 01:20:39,767 IN MY OPINION. 1488 01:20:39,767 --> 01:20:43,767 I DON'T THINK I RUN TO FOOD FOR COMFORT. 1489 01:20:43,767 --> 01:20:46,267 SOMETIMES, IT DOES MAKE ME FEEL BETTER, 1490 01:20:46,267 --> 01:20:50,533 BUT I THINK THAT'S THE WAY IT IS FOR EVERYONE. 1491 01:20:50,533 --> 01:20:54,533 THERE'S NOTHING TO FIX WITH WHO I AM. 1492 01:20:54,533 --> 01:20:57,267 I DON'T NEED THIS KIND OF HELP. 1493 01:20:57,267 --> 01:20:58,533 I NEED REAL HELP. 1494 01:21:14,333 --> 01:21:17,400 OVER THE PAST MONTH, I'VE BEEN TRYING TO DO MORE 1495 01:21:17,400 --> 01:21:21,100 AND GET OUT WITH MY FRIENDS AND STAY ACTIVE. 1496 01:21:24,867 --> 01:21:26,833 IT'S GETTING REALLY HARD... 1497 01:21:26,833 --> 01:21:29,233 -HOW ARE Y'ALL DOING? -GOOD. HOW ARE YOU? 1498 01:21:29,233 --> 01:21:31,067 Cynthia: ...BECAUSE I DON'T FEEL LIKE I'M READY 1499 01:21:31,067 --> 01:21:33,300 FOR A LOT RIGHT NOW. 1500 01:21:33,300 --> 01:21:35,300 RIGHT THIS WAY. 1501 01:21:35,300 --> 01:21:39,333 AND IT'S BEEN HARDER LATELY TO STAY MOTIVATED. 1502 01:21:39,333 --> 01:21:41,900 I JUST DON'T HAVE A LOT OF ENERGY. 1503 01:21:41,900 --> 01:21:44,200 AND IT'S HARD DEALING WITH THE CRAVINGS. 1504 01:21:44,200 --> 01:21:46,467 ARE YOU HAPPY TO BE OUT AND AWAY FROM THE KIDS? 1505 01:21:46,467 --> 01:21:48,800 I'M NEVER HAPPY TO BE AWAY FROM MY KIDS. 1506 01:21:48,800 --> 01:21:51,600 -SO YOU'D RATHER BE AT HOME? -OF COURSE I WOULD. 1507 01:21:51,600 --> 01:21:54,667 MY GIRLS WANT ME TO START GETTING BACK OUT THERE 1508 01:21:54,667 --> 01:21:56,400 AND MEET SOMEONE. 1509 01:21:56,400 --> 01:21:59,133 BUT I'M JUST NOWHERE NEAR READY. 1510 01:21:59,133 --> 01:22:01,267 -HOW WE DOING TONIGHT? -FINE. 1511 01:22:01,267 --> 01:22:02,967 Cynthia: MY FOCUS IS STILL MY KIDS, 1512 01:22:02,967 --> 01:22:04,967 AND THAT'S WHERE IT'S GONNA STAY. 1513 01:22:04,967 --> 01:22:08,467 I JUST HAVE TO TRY AND KEEP MY CRAVINGS UNDER CONTROL. 1514 01:22:08,467 --> 01:22:11,967 JUST WANT THE FRENCH ONION. -CUP OR A BOWL? 1515 01:22:11,967 --> 01:22:14,733 UH...GIVE ME A BOWL. 1516 01:22:15,700 --> 01:22:17,867 I DO INDULGE A LITTLE. 1517 01:22:17,867 --> 01:22:21,100 BUT NOTHING IS TOO MUCH FOR ME. 1518 01:22:21,100 --> 01:22:23,300 PASS THAT BUTTER OVER HERE, PLEASE. 1519 01:22:23,300 --> 01:22:26,700 YOU'RE TRYING TO TAKE ME BACK TO THE DARK SIDE. 1520 01:22:26,700 --> 01:22:27,733 I DO GIVE IN 1521 01:22:27,733 --> 01:22:30,200 AND EAT SOME THINGS I SHOULDN'T. 1522 01:22:30,200 --> 01:22:32,600 IT'S NOT A LOT, 1523 01:22:32,600 --> 01:22:35,300 SO I KNOW MY BALANCE RIGHT NOW. 1524 01:22:35,300 --> 01:22:38,067 YOU KNOW, WE'VE TALKED ABOUT THIS JOURNEY 1525 01:22:38,067 --> 01:22:39,800 FROM THE VERY BEGINNING. 1526 01:22:39,800 --> 01:22:43,333 BUT IT IS YOUR TIME FOR YOU TO START 1527 01:22:43,333 --> 01:22:45,867 JUST DOING SOMETHING FOR YOU. 1528 01:22:45,867 --> 01:22:47,633 IT'S YOUR TURN. -IT'S MY TURN? 1529 01:22:47,633 --> 01:22:49,167 MM-HMM. 1530 01:22:49,167 --> 01:22:53,067 YOU KNOW THAT LITTLE, CUTE GUY YOU WAS TELLING ME ABOUT? 1531 01:22:53,067 --> 01:22:54,633 WHICH ONE? 1532 01:22:54,633 --> 01:22:57,133 [ LAUGHTER ] 1533 01:22:57,133 --> 01:22:59,767 I GOT FIVE KIDS. I NEED A MAN WITH NO KIDS. 1534 01:22:59,767 --> 01:23:02,067 [ LAUGHS ] 1535 01:23:02,067 --> 01:23:03,900 -YOUR KIDS NEED A DADDY. -NO, THEY DON'T. 1536 01:23:03,900 --> 01:23:05,667 YOU NEED TO PUT YOURSELF OUT THERE. 1537 01:23:05,667 --> 01:23:06,733 -NO, I DON'T. -MM-HMM. 1538 01:23:06,733 --> 01:23:09,100 -THAT'S MY MISSION. -IS TO DO WHAT? 1539 01:23:09,100 --> 01:23:11,900 -FIND YOU SOMEBODY. -I DON'T -- IT'LL HAPPEN. 1540 01:23:11,900 --> 01:23:14,633 I WANT TO GO AT MY OWN PACE. 1541 01:23:14,633 --> 01:23:16,600 WITH THE WEIGHT LOSS, I'LL PROBABLY BE WILLING 1542 01:23:16,600 --> 01:23:18,667 TO PUT MYSELF OUT THERE MORE. 1543 01:23:18,667 --> 01:23:21,433 BUT I DON'T NEED THEIR HELP. 1544 01:23:21,433 --> 01:23:23,367 -I ENJOYED THIS. -I DID, TOO. 1545 01:23:23,367 --> 01:23:24,600 YEAH. 1546 01:23:24,600 --> 01:23:27,100 AND I DON'T NEED EVERYONE'S EXPECTATIONS ON ME 1547 01:23:27,100 --> 01:23:29,833 TO DO WHAT THEY THINK I SHOULD DO, 1548 01:23:29,833 --> 01:23:34,233 WHETHER IT'S MY FAMILY, DR. NOW, OR WHOEVER. 1549 01:23:34,233 --> 01:23:36,133 I KNOW WHAT I NEED TO BE DOING. 1550 01:23:54,167 --> 01:23:57,633 THIS HAS BEEN A HARD COUPLE OF MONTHS. 1551 01:23:57,633 --> 01:24:00,600 THE DESIRE TO EAT A LOT OF WHAT I SHOULDN'T 1552 01:24:00,600 --> 01:24:02,733 IS REALLY STRONG. 1553 01:24:02,733 --> 01:24:07,533 SO I'M TRYING TO KEEP MY MIND OFF OF FOOD AS MUCH AS POSSIBLE. 1554 01:24:07,533 --> 01:24:11,800 I'VE BEEN GOING OUT TO EXERCISE AND STAY MOTIVATED, 1555 01:24:11,800 --> 01:24:15,733 BUT IT'S HARD. 1556 01:24:15,733 --> 01:24:17,667 I'VE DECIDED TO STOP TRYING TO LIVE UP 1557 01:24:17,667 --> 01:24:20,533 TO EVERYONE'S EXPECTATIONS OF ME, 1558 01:24:20,533 --> 01:24:22,433 INCLUDING DR. NOW'S. 1559 01:24:25,333 --> 01:24:28,233 I APPRECIATE ALL THE HELP HE'S GIVEN ME, 1560 01:24:28,233 --> 01:24:31,333 BUT I'VE DECIDED IF HE'S PUSHING ME FOR THERAPY 1561 01:24:31,333 --> 01:24:34,667 I DON'T NEED TO SEE HIM RIGHT NOW. 1562 01:24:34,667 --> 01:24:37,667 AND I NEED TO SPEND SOME TIME DOING THIS MY WAY. 1563 01:24:40,500 --> 01:24:42,833 I DON'T NEED HIM TRYING TO MAKE CONNECTIONS TO THINGS 1564 01:24:42,833 --> 01:24:45,667 THAT AREN'T THERE. 1565 01:24:45,667 --> 01:24:48,600 I NEVER USED FOOD TO DEAL WITH MY EMOTIONS, 1566 01:24:48,600 --> 01:24:51,533 AND ANYONE TELLING ME THAT'S WHAT MY ISSUE IS 1567 01:24:51,533 --> 01:24:54,700 DOESN'T KNOW ME AND CAN'T HELP ME. 1568 01:24:54,700 --> 01:24:56,933 SO HE CAN'T HELP ME AT THIS POINT. 1569 01:25:02,967 --> 01:25:05,533 I'VE BEEN DOING THIS FOR MY KIDS. 1570 01:25:05,533 --> 01:25:08,667 THEY ARE MY WHOLE WORLD. 1571 01:25:08,667 --> 01:25:11,300 I'M WORKING AS HARD AS I CAN, 1572 01:25:11,300 --> 01:25:14,833 AND I THOUGHT THE SURGERY WOULD FIX EVERYTHING. 1573 01:25:14,833 --> 01:25:17,467 BUT IT DIDN'T. 1574 01:25:17,467 --> 01:25:22,233 SO I HAVE TO FIGHT TO FIGURE OUT WHAT TO DO RIGHT NOW. 1575 01:25:22,233 --> 01:25:24,633 I'VE COME SO FAR, 1576 01:25:24,633 --> 01:25:29,333 AND I DON'T WANT TO END UP GOING BACK AND GAINING WEIGHT. 1577 01:25:29,333 --> 01:25:32,100 I JUST THINK I HAVE TO DO IT ON MY OWN RIGHT NOW.